开启我继续看言情小说的就是她了. 她的小说给人一种很幸福的感觉,很圆满.不论男女主角性格有多古怪, 他们相爱就够了. 虽然不是每一本都好看, 但大多数让我非常感动. 有她的作品就不需要再幻想有没有男朋友的日子了. 精神会得到一种满足, 至少世界不是完全黑暗的.
重评古灵经典之最《一家都是宝》
命定的爱情，相扶到老，生死相随。
古灵的小说，一向以温馨感人而主线。她很多初期的作品，到今日仍让许多读者念念不忘。在这些经典当中，《一家都是宝》更是古灵书单之中非看不可的佳作。它说着简单却最深情的故事，叙述着一对男女之间命定的爱情，纵然遇上再多的波折和考验，他们仍然相信对方，坚持相爱。他们的爱情，一开始就已经相约要相扶到老，生死相随……
“洋娃娃”爱怜的朝她笑了。“是啊！是你爸爸妈妈叫我来陪你的，你不要哭了好不好？”小倩倩立刻开心地猛点头。“好，好，只要你陪着我，我就不哭了。”洋娃娃颔首。“好，我会陪着你，只要你不哭，我就永远不离开你。”
当四岁的甄吟倩在孤儿院中不断哭泣，长得像洋娃娃般的任沐需抱住她，轻拍她的背安慰她，并许下永远都不离开的承诺时，这一对男女的命运，已经连在了一起，尽管日后风浪再大，也没把他们打散成为陌路人。
主角篇
古灵的男女主角一向都有很好的性格，甚少出现那些不良的沙猪或惹人讨厌的角色。女主角甄吟倩外表虽然大而化之，内心却十分细腻，在一些非常时刻，她都能很体贴地为别人着想，妥善地安排一切事物。外观娇小而稚气的她，在捍卫她的爱情、婚姻和家人时，却是个坚强、独立又勇敢的女人。
男主角任沐需不折不扣是一名痴情种。这个男人很死心眼，认定了的人和事都不轻易改变，有时候有些执著有些傻气，却都是为了让情/家人过更好的生活。他的温柔、他的守候、他的努力，他的一切优点和缺点，却只展现于他认定的人――先是他的情人兼亲亲老婆吟倩，再来是他的孩子。
剧情篇
看古灵的书，可以很舒服很享受。除了她的文笔精炼诙谐之外，不管多么复杂困难的情节到她手上，她都能写得轻松感人，让人在看书时不会感到压力。另，最为主轴的是，书中的男女主角一直都是相爱的，不论是在热恋中、婚姻里、甚至是在误会发生的时候。读者不必担心会看到误会发生时，本来相爱的男女主角会“迫不得已”的去伤害对方，恶言相对甚至凌虐对方。感谢古灵。
当然，古灵也不会将相爱的男女主角写得从一相遇到相恋、结婚，都平步青云幸福美满到永远。如果是，那读者一定会抱怨作者骗钱，毕竟那实在没有多大的看头。不经一番寒彻骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香？经得起考验挫折的爱情，才能够展现其最浓郁的芬芳，而且使双方更清楚自己何处是真爱，也更了解自己追求的到底是什么。
吟倩和沐需，从相恋到结婚，一同经历了许多许多，年少时生活的压迫、学历的距离而差点分手放弃、婚后沐需为工作而两人被迫分隔两地、吟倩生产时的孤独一人、沐需成名的代价、到最后患病而急流勇退。他们的爱情和幸福，实在是得之非幸巧，而是经过两人辛苦努力经营而来。
古灵写书，总能在情节描写上给人意想不到的惊喜和意外，就好象沐需为了要逼吟倩放弃他，而演出了一场“琵琶别抱”的戏码。出乎意料，不但误会没造成，反而只换来吟倩的一句：“演得好烂”，实在是幽了其他套用如此情节的作者一默。另，就连发誓也特别的与众不同，誓言的惩罚，不是针对发誓着沐需，而是吟倩。吟倩要他发誓，如果他再在乎她的学历，“她”就X无葬身之地。因为她知道，沐需在乎她比自己还要多。
而在一家都是宝当中堪称经典的镜头之一，就是当沐需知道吟倩要离开他，他情绪崩溃之余竟然选择轻生…这对于一个男主角可说是非常罕见的情节了。一向来女生为爱情而自杀屡见不鲜，而一个男的若如此做，除了赞他痴情之外，也许别的都是一些贬词吧。两性之间，似乎一直都没平等过。男儿流血不流泪，这次，古灵让她的男主角作了另外一番的诠译。家庭篇家庭，一直在古灵的书里面扮演举足轻重的位置。她擅长营造温馨浓郁的家庭气氛，而且绝对不认同婚姻是爱情的坟墓。吟倩为了她的家庭而放弃她的工作，却不是没有大志，而只是因为情况所需。在过后情况改善之后，她还是继续进行自己的兴趣，继续以另外一种形式献身教育。
这种类型的女子由为让人欣赏，即不是为了工作而忽略甚至放弃家庭的女强人，也不是那种有了孩子有了丈夫就完全置理想兴趣不管的小女人。她，很聪明的在两者之间找到一个平衡点。
执子之手，与尔同老，说说而已就很容易，真正要做到却是一件很难的事情。尤其是对於一个患上重病的人来说，要许下这样的承诺，更是困难。可是，我们都知道，要克服疾病，如同克服困难一样，除了要有方法(高明的医术) ，还需要有坚强的意志。多少患上癌症的病人就是凭其过人的意志而克服了那据说必死的疾病?
“我……”她哽咽了一下。“我一直想要两个儿子、两个女儿，可是你一直叫我吃避孕药，我以为是你不想要其他的孩子了。我……我不管，你一定要再给我一个儿子和两个女儿！还有，你不能把他们扔给我一个人照顾，否则他们会联手整死我，我会变得好可怜、好可怜，可怜到就算你死了也不会瞑目的！”
吟倩，很聪明的，就以情一字来激励和支撑沐需。她不止照顾他的生活起居，她还照顾他的心灵感受。生病的人，意志会比较薄弱。所以她用承诺来套住他，不让他轻易放弃自己。她说，他还欠她一男二女；她说，如果他走了，她一定会生死相随；她说，孩子还小，她实在不舍得抛下孩子，所以他也不能这么快离开。因为，他们约好了，当他们一起慢慢变老之后，他们才一同的离开，抱着美好的回忆。
从开始到现在，从童年、少年、成年甚至是到老，他们互握的手，仍然没有放开。因为这份坚持和信任的爱，他们的爱情，不管花开花谢，却仍然相随相伴。细水长流的爱情从他们身上得到最传神的诠译和解释，那份生死相随，相扶到老的真挚感情，不需要过多的言语修饰，就足以感动每一颗心。
一些后言∶古灵的书，对白幽默风趣，用粤语来形容就是很“鬼马”“抵死”。在她的书里头，总有最别出心裁的情节蹦出来，给人特别的笑果和惊喜。而以情为本，其书里面的爱情、亲情和友情等又描绘得如此扣心细腻，让人看了忍不住留下了泪。虽然某纱不是她的粉丝，可是她的小说某些还是让人爱不释手的。这本《一家都是宝》和《一家都是宝PART II》就是其中的经典。虽然后来古灵尝试了更丰富的路线来写文，也在文中加入一些非常新颖的主题，甚至连外星人、见鬼等等都出动了。可是，最叫我喜欢的，反而是这本讲着简单青梅竹马的爱情故事。能感动人的，从来都不是太复杂的东西。
古灵《一家都是宝》: http://book.4yt.net/chapter/book_2698.htm古灵《一家都是宝Part 2》:http://book.4yt.net/chapter/book_2700.htm
P/S∶为何说是重评呢？其实这篇评已经写了有些时日，可是写好了一直不大满意，把它堆在一旁沾灰尘。最近觉得放着可惜，于是来个修改篇把它贴了出来…
Friday, November 12, 2004
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Good flashes!!!
hia......please give me more time to update my life.....in maintenance.....for now...have abreak....take a kitkat.....oh...no lah...wat i mean is take some break...
Suddenly realise that Jay Zhou's lyrics very picturesque....so enjoy....
Suddenly realise that Jay Zhou's lyrics very picturesque....so enjoy....
Monday, November 01, 2004
yeah....agree with this!
天上·人间——张翠山殷素素
倚天人物里，我对郭襄何足道是欣赏，对周芷若是理解，而对张翠山殷素素，则是发自内心的喜欢。记得第一次看倚天，“百岁寿宴摧肝肠”之后，几乎就没了继续看下去的欲望，满脑子都是张殷二人与谢逊的生死周旋、化敌为友，风浪里的爱情，荒岛上的温馨，归航中的隐忧，直至最后寿宴上的惨烈，一幕幕场景都清晰无比，不可磨灭。从那时起，便用了“情深义重”四个字作他们的评语，并且坚定不移地把他们作为我最喜欢的金书中情侣，一直到现在。 后来，一个偶然的机会，我才惊讶地发现：一向自认为喜欢张殷的我，原来对他们初遇那一段的情节几乎都不记得了！是的，在遇到谢逊以后，他们的人生之舟大逆转了方向，急流险滩纷至沓来，极富张力的情节吸引了当年的我所有的目光，最后辉煌的死亡更是掩盖了一切阴影，也中止了一切其他的可能性。而事隔三年以后，重温倚天前十回的我合上书的时候，是一声叹息。
张殷初遇在人世间复杂的旋涡中，看似清新美好的笔墨里，其实早已伏下冲突和悲剧的种子。而自然环境最恶劣的时候，在最远离人世的极北之地，人恢复到最原始的状态，因社会关系而起的一切矛盾都暂时不存在，他们的爱情之花才得以生长、绽放。张翠山和殷素素的美满姻缘，原来只是不能容于现实的浪漫。只是，疏阔的我，从前都忽略了这些。
六和塔下，垂柳扁舟。斜风细雨不须归的浪漫相会之后，张殷二人共坐舱中，谈话渐渐熟络之际，张翠山听殷素素轻描淡写地说起龙门镖局数十条人命，当即直言说她过于狠辣。殷素素顿时沉下脸来，冷笑道：“你要教训我么？我活了一十九岁，倒还没听人教训过呢。张五侠大仁大义，这就请罢。我这般心狠手辣之辈，原没盼望跟你结交。”出海到王盘山岛途中，殷素素可以因为体察张翠山心意而救下巨鲸帮的人，但随即冷冷提醒他，他们都是大奸大恶的死有余辜之徒，教张翠山也茫然若失，答不上话来。张翠山自和她同行，多次盘算：“善恶不明，应早脱身”，不愿和“旁门邪教”混在一起。王盘山岛上，张翠山对谢逊大谈行侠仗义辨别是非，殷素素却说“人为刀俎我为鱼肉，那也事属寻常”。
即使在倾心热恋之际，殷素素却低声道：“将来我二人死了，你会上天，我……我……我却要入地狱。”张翠山拿“改过迁善，多积功德”来安慰她，殷素素只是“默然”而已。她心里一直清楚，她的所作所为，所思所想，与张翠山差别甚大，双方可以容让，可以妥协，却是不可调和。因为两个都是性子倔强的人，终不会改了自己的本性。
[quote]殷素素默然，过了一会，忽然轻轻唱起歌来，唱的是一曲《山坡羊》：“他与咱，咱与他，两下里多牵挂。冤家，怎能够成就了姻缘，就死在阎王殿前，由他把那杵来舂，锯来解，把磨来挨，放在油锅里去炸。唉呀由他！只见那活人受罪，哪曾见过死鬼带枷？唉呀由他！火烧眉毛，且顾眼下。火烧眉毛，且顾眼下。”猛听得谢逊在舱中大声喝彩：“好曲子，好曲子，殷姑娘，你比这个假仁假义的张相公，可合我心意得多了。”殷素素道：“我和你都是恶人，将来都没好下场。”张翠山低声道：“倘若你没好下场，我也跟你一起没好下场。”殷素素惊喜交集，只叫得一声：“五哥！”再也说不下去了。（浮槎北溟海茫茫）[/quote]
殷素素终究是现实的、果决的人。“火烧眉毛，且顾眼下。”她打定主意要去追求这一份感情，不是不知道会付出什么代价，可是仍然义无反顾。纪晓芙的“不悔”多少有点咬牙逞强的意思，殷素素的“不悔”却是干净利落，光风霁月。说实话张翠山这一句“倘若你没好下场，我也跟你一起没好下场”，不要说殷素素，就是在我看来都是颇为惊喜的。大概一个人无论怎么端方谨严，总也免不了情动于中头脑发热的时候吧。而向来独来独往面冷心狠的殷素素，临到此时，也与天下情窦初开的妙龄少女一般无异了。
情之一字，其神如此。 到了二人同上冰火岛，准备结为夫妇之时， [quote]殷素素道：“五哥，我有句话问你，你可不许骗我。倘若咱们是在陆地上，没经过这一切危难，倘若我也是这般一心一意要嫁给你，你也仍然要我么？”张翠山呆了呆，伸手搔搔头皮，道：“我想咱们不会好得这么快，而且，而且……一定会有很多阻碍波折，咱们的门派不同……”（谁泛冰舸来仙乡）[/quote]
张翠山说的是实话，可是，却并没有回答殷素素的问题。而聪明如殷素素，也没有再问。因为她明白，以当时的情势，这个问题的答案如何，已经没有意义。但我们不妨做个遐想，假如他们当时真的回到陆地，抛开张翠山势必要追查俞岱岩之事不说，如果一桩像殷梨亭那样的名门正派亲事找上门来，张翠山会如何选择，大概是注定的吧。即使在与殷素素结婚十年之后，他一听说殷梨亭定亲，立刻问道：“新娘子是哪一位 名门 之女？”俞莲舟夸赞纪晓芙也道：“咱们这位未过门的六弟妹人品既好，武功又佳， 名门 弟子，毕竟不凡，和六弟当真是天生一对……”大抵名门正派的得意弟子，思维定式便是如此吧，反倒不如张三丰老头子看得开。 然而，他们是在远离了一切社会关系的荒岛之上。天作之合，这四个字最适用的，便是张殷二人。荒岛十年，艰苦凶险自不待言，可是他们（尤其是张）却慢慢由焦躁不耐变成心安意足自得其乐，临去时甚至生出留恋之意。再履中土之后，夫妇两还不止一次地说起过“找到无忌便回冰火岛去”的话。一入红尘便有去意，这让人想起什么？对了，就是金庸书中从头到尾都是童话的杨龙姻缘。张殷终于没有能再回冰火岛，所以张殷只是半截童话。所以我们眼睁睁看着，童话在现实里碎裂。
[quote]一天晚上，张翠山半夜醒转，忽听得风声有异。他坐起来，听得风声果是从北而至，忙推醒殷素素，喜道：“你听！”殷素素迷迷糊糊的尚未回答，忽听得谢逊在外说道：“转北风啦，转北风啦！”话中竟如带着哭音，中夜听来，极其凄厉辛酸。（穷发十载泛归航）[/quote]
这一段给我印象很深，每次读来，似乎都听得到那北风的呼啸呜咽，心中也为之一酸。张家三口欢天喜地的准备出发，谢逊却坚持不走，这一场离别，又增几分伤感。造化弄人，在这已经有些沉郁的气氛下，他们回到中原最先遇见的，竟然便是天鹰教与武当派的打斗。
两下见过面， [quote]殷素素是宾方首席，无忌侍立在侧。主方是俞莲舟为首，他指着卫四娘下首的一张椅子道：“五弟，你坐这里罢。”张翠山应道：“是。”依言就座。这么一来，张殷夫妇分成宾主双方，也便是相互敌对的两边。（七侠聚会乐未央）[/quote]
这个不祥的暗示，已经很明显了吧。一入人世，尖锐的矛盾冲突便找上门来，避无可避。接着俞莲舟要张翠山跟他回武当，只呼殷素素为“殷姑娘”，明摆着是要他夫妻分离。还好这时，殷素素望望天，望望甲板，张翠山还记得起那“天上地下永不分离”的誓言。 出海归来以后的殷素素，在武当诸人看来，似乎已经“改恶向善”，其实她虽因为孩子增了一些慈爱之心，深层的本性何尝变过。看她在船上使计教训骂她是“妖女”的西华子，看她装疯巧救被挟持的儿子，心思手段仍是果断斩绝，丝毫不拘迂礼，哪有张翠山那般面临大敌也不肯偷袭的呆气。俞莲舟初见面便将她教训一顿，殷素素又何尝不着恼？但是她暗想：“我才不听你这一套仁义道德呢。但若我冲撞于你，倒是令张郎难于做人，我且让你一步便了。”仍然是，可以妥协，可以容让，但并不改变自己。说到底，张翠山始终是执著于正邪善恶概念的君子，殷素素虽然有所改变，本性却仍然是洒脱叛逆、快意恩仇的江湖人。
吴霭仪评点金书人物时说，若是再过几年，殷素素必会被这酸秀才（张翠山）闷死。语带调侃，却也道出了张殷性格大不相同的主题。 “琢磨颇望成全璧，激烈何须到碎琴？”这是鹿鼎记里一句全不相干的回目，却鬼使神差的如同张殷夫妇的谶语。饶是殷素素心机玲珑，饶是张翠山善良淳厚，饶是他们对这一份十年的感情都有着百般的呵护千般的琢磨，但二人的本性终究有着不可调和的鸿沟，牵涉到的江湖恩怨又是那样错综复杂解不开的结，他们又不像郭黄有着彼此都认为高于自身的共同事业作为根本寄托……特殊机缘下滋养生长起来的爱情一旦入了人间，自然人还原成社会人，这块玉璧，便只有碎裂一途。这一幕“玉碎”是那样的惊心动魄，那样的华彩和决绝，使得玉璧上隐隐的裂纹，永远没有了被发现的可能。张爱玲写的《霸王别姬》里，虞姬的最后一句话是：“我比较喜欢那样的收梢。”同样，这样一个“玉碎”的收梢，其实对于张殷二人，尤其是对于殷素素，未必不是一件幸事。 只是，想到十九岁的殷素素，在海船中犹豫不愿放银针射谢逊，只因怕回了大陆张翠山会舍她而去，这样才换得冰火岛十年夫妻；而十年之后回到大陆，二十九岁的殷素素，却仍然挽不住张翠山为了义气自刎，不禁黯然……这样的苦心，真是“琢磨颇望成全璧”啊。
张翠山“死志甚坚”的时候，记得向张三丰托付无忌，却并没有半句话关照妻子。可是，利刃断喉的那一刻，他的心里可曾掠过殷素素的笑颜么？垂柳扁舟、斜风细雨、冰海危船、惊涛骇浪、岛上猎熊、爱子降生，这些无比珍贵的生活点滴，在那一瞬间，难道都被强烈的道德感驱赶得精光？“不管天上地下，人间海底，咱们永远在一起。”这誓言当年出自张翠山的口，而最终使它得以实践的，是殷素素。 人们通常认为，“正邪之恋”的代表是令狐冲和任盈盈。其实这两个人却是共有隐士的澹泊胸襟，性格在本质上也都属于洒脱随和一类，他们结合的障碍只是纯粹的门户之见，而不像张殷那样，是因为成长背景不同导致的性格、价值观的根本性矛盾。任盈盈更是比殷素素乖巧许多，在令狐冲身边完全就是个温顺小女生，虽然有时也说一两句“宁可一剑刺死了你”的狠话，可是那已经是情人间的玩笑，何况她极懂得拿捏分寸。一部笑傲看下来，像张殷那般经常折射出思想格格不入的对话，在冲盈间竟找不到什么。说来也奇怪，满口仁义道德、强调“正道”的岳不群，偏偏教出令狐冲这样真正洒脱澹泊不存成见的徒弟；张三丰智慧通达、毫不拘泥，最心爱的弟子张翠山却偏偏是那么一个严谨迂直的人。
张翠山无疑比令狐冲更像一个典型的正派弟子，而将殷素素、黄蓉、任盈盈、敏敏特穆尔这几个都被称作“妖女”的女子一比便知，“妖气”最重的，性情最强的，乃是殷素素。张殷的恋情才是真正的“正邪之恋”，真实可感，却也无奈而残酷。落花流水春去也，天上人间。也许只有在冰火岛那样的世外桃源，才容得下这一对璧人吧。 （注：本文曾发在TOM游戏论坛，用的名字是 白虹贯日 。）
倚天人物里，我对郭襄何足道是欣赏，对周芷若是理解，而对张翠山殷素素，则是发自内心的喜欢。记得第一次看倚天，“百岁寿宴摧肝肠”之后，几乎就没了继续看下去的欲望，满脑子都是张殷二人与谢逊的生死周旋、化敌为友，风浪里的爱情，荒岛上的温馨，归航中的隐忧，直至最后寿宴上的惨烈，一幕幕场景都清晰无比，不可磨灭。从那时起，便用了“情深义重”四个字作他们的评语，并且坚定不移地把他们作为我最喜欢的金书中情侣，一直到现在。 后来，一个偶然的机会，我才惊讶地发现：一向自认为喜欢张殷的我，原来对他们初遇那一段的情节几乎都不记得了！是的，在遇到谢逊以后，他们的人生之舟大逆转了方向，急流险滩纷至沓来，极富张力的情节吸引了当年的我所有的目光，最后辉煌的死亡更是掩盖了一切阴影，也中止了一切其他的可能性。而事隔三年以后，重温倚天前十回的我合上书的时候，是一声叹息。
张殷初遇在人世间复杂的旋涡中，看似清新美好的笔墨里，其实早已伏下冲突和悲剧的种子。而自然环境最恶劣的时候，在最远离人世的极北之地，人恢复到最原始的状态，因社会关系而起的一切矛盾都暂时不存在，他们的爱情之花才得以生长、绽放。张翠山和殷素素的美满姻缘，原来只是不能容于现实的浪漫。只是，疏阔的我，从前都忽略了这些。
六和塔下，垂柳扁舟。斜风细雨不须归的浪漫相会之后，张殷二人共坐舱中，谈话渐渐熟络之际，张翠山听殷素素轻描淡写地说起龙门镖局数十条人命，当即直言说她过于狠辣。殷素素顿时沉下脸来，冷笑道：“你要教训我么？我活了一十九岁，倒还没听人教训过呢。张五侠大仁大义，这就请罢。我这般心狠手辣之辈，原没盼望跟你结交。”出海到王盘山岛途中，殷素素可以因为体察张翠山心意而救下巨鲸帮的人，但随即冷冷提醒他，他们都是大奸大恶的死有余辜之徒，教张翠山也茫然若失，答不上话来。张翠山自和她同行，多次盘算：“善恶不明，应早脱身”，不愿和“旁门邪教”混在一起。王盘山岛上，张翠山对谢逊大谈行侠仗义辨别是非，殷素素却说“人为刀俎我为鱼肉，那也事属寻常”。
即使在倾心热恋之际，殷素素却低声道：“将来我二人死了，你会上天，我……我……我却要入地狱。”张翠山拿“改过迁善，多积功德”来安慰她，殷素素只是“默然”而已。她心里一直清楚，她的所作所为，所思所想，与张翠山差别甚大，双方可以容让，可以妥协，却是不可调和。因为两个都是性子倔强的人，终不会改了自己的本性。
[quote]殷素素默然，过了一会，忽然轻轻唱起歌来，唱的是一曲《山坡羊》：“他与咱，咱与他，两下里多牵挂。冤家，怎能够成就了姻缘，就死在阎王殿前，由他把那杵来舂，锯来解，把磨来挨，放在油锅里去炸。唉呀由他！只见那活人受罪，哪曾见过死鬼带枷？唉呀由他！火烧眉毛，且顾眼下。火烧眉毛，且顾眼下。”猛听得谢逊在舱中大声喝彩：“好曲子，好曲子，殷姑娘，你比这个假仁假义的张相公，可合我心意得多了。”殷素素道：“我和你都是恶人，将来都没好下场。”张翠山低声道：“倘若你没好下场，我也跟你一起没好下场。”殷素素惊喜交集，只叫得一声：“五哥！”再也说不下去了。（浮槎北溟海茫茫）[/quote]
殷素素终究是现实的、果决的人。“火烧眉毛，且顾眼下。”她打定主意要去追求这一份感情，不是不知道会付出什么代价，可是仍然义无反顾。纪晓芙的“不悔”多少有点咬牙逞强的意思，殷素素的“不悔”却是干净利落，光风霁月。说实话张翠山这一句“倘若你没好下场，我也跟你一起没好下场”，不要说殷素素，就是在我看来都是颇为惊喜的。大概一个人无论怎么端方谨严，总也免不了情动于中头脑发热的时候吧。而向来独来独往面冷心狠的殷素素，临到此时，也与天下情窦初开的妙龄少女一般无异了。
情之一字，其神如此。 到了二人同上冰火岛，准备结为夫妇之时， [quote]殷素素道：“五哥，我有句话问你，你可不许骗我。倘若咱们是在陆地上，没经过这一切危难，倘若我也是这般一心一意要嫁给你，你也仍然要我么？”张翠山呆了呆，伸手搔搔头皮，道：“我想咱们不会好得这么快，而且，而且……一定会有很多阻碍波折，咱们的门派不同……”（谁泛冰舸来仙乡）[/quote]
张翠山说的是实话，可是，却并没有回答殷素素的问题。而聪明如殷素素，也没有再问。因为她明白，以当时的情势，这个问题的答案如何，已经没有意义。但我们不妨做个遐想，假如他们当时真的回到陆地，抛开张翠山势必要追查俞岱岩之事不说，如果一桩像殷梨亭那样的名门正派亲事找上门来，张翠山会如何选择，大概是注定的吧。即使在与殷素素结婚十年之后，他一听说殷梨亭定亲，立刻问道：“新娘子是哪一位 名门 之女？”俞莲舟夸赞纪晓芙也道：“咱们这位未过门的六弟妹人品既好，武功又佳， 名门 弟子，毕竟不凡，和六弟当真是天生一对……”大抵名门正派的得意弟子，思维定式便是如此吧，反倒不如张三丰老头子看得开。 然而，他们是在远离了一切社会关系的荒岛之上。天作之合，这四个字最适用的，便是张殷二人。荒岛十年，艰苦凶险自不待言，可是他们（尤其是张）却慢慢由焦躁不耐变成心安意足自得其乐，临去时甚至生出留恋之意。再履中土之后，夫妇两还不止一次地说起过“找到无忌便回冰火岛去”的话。一入红尘便有去意，这让人想起什么？对了，就是金庸书中从头到尾都是童话的杨龙姻缘。张殷终于没有能再回冰火岛，所以张殷只是半截童话。所以我们眼睁睁看着，童话在现实里碎裂。
[quote]一天晚上，张翠山半夜醒转，忽听得风声有异。他坐起来，听得风声果是从北而至，忙推醒殷素素，喜道：“你听！”殷素素迷迷糊糊的尚未回答，忽听得谢逊在外说道：“转北风啦，转北风啦！”话中竟如带着哭音，中夜听来，极其凄厉辛酸。（穷发十载泛归航）[/quote]
这一段给我印象很深，每次读来，似乎都听得到那北风的呼啸呜咽，心中也为之一酸。张家三口欢天喜地的准备出发，谢逊却坚持不走，这一场离别，又增几分伤感。造化弄人，在这已经有些沉郁的气氛下，他们回到中原最先遇见的，竟然便是天鹰教与武当派的打斗。
两下见过面， [quote]殷素素是宾方首席，无忌侍立在侧。主方是俞莲舟为首，他指着卫四娘下首的一张椅子道：“五弟，你坐这里罢。”张翠山应道：“是。”依言就座。这么一来，张殷夫妇分成宾主双方，也便是相互敌对的两边。（七侠聚会乐未央）[/quote]
这个不祥的暗示，已经很明显了吧。一入人世，尖锐的矛盾冲突便找上门来，避无可避。接着俞莲舟要张翠山跟他回武当，只呼殷素素为“殷姑娘”，明摆着是要他夫妻分离。还好这时，殷素素望望天，望望甲板，张翠山还记得起那“天上地下永不分离”的誓言。 出海归来以后的殷素素，在武当诸人看来，似乎已经“改恶向善”，其实她虽因为孩子增了一些慈爱之心，深层的本性何尝变过。看她在船上使计教训骂她是“妖女”的西华子，看她装疯巧救被挟持的儿子，心思手段仍是果断斩绝，丝毫不拘迂礼，哪有张翠山那般面临大敌也不肯偷袭的呆气。俞莲舟初见面便将她教训一顿，殷素素又何尝不着恼？但是她暗想：“我才不听你这一套仁义道德呢。但若我冲撞于你，倒是令张郎难于做人，我且让你一步便了。”仍然是，可以妥协，可以容让，但并不改变自己。说到底，张翠山始终是执著于正邪善恶概念的君子，殷素素虽然有所改变，本性却仍然是洒脱叛逆、快意恩仇的江湖人。
吴霭仪评点金书人物时说，若是再过几年，殷素素必会被这酸秀才（张翠山）闷死。语带调侃，却也道出了张殷性格大不相同的主题。 “琢磨颇望成全璧，激烈何须到碎琴？”这是鹿鼎记里一句全不相干的回目，却鬼使神差的如同张殷夫妇的谶语。饶是殷素素心机玲珑，饶是张翠山善良淳厚，饶是他们对这一份十年的感情都有着百般的呵护千般的琢磨，但二人的本性终究有着不可调和的鸿沟，牵涉到的江湖恩怨又是那样错综复杂解不开的结，他们又不像郭黄有着彼此都认为高于自身的共同事业作为根本寄托……特殊机缘下滋养生长起来的爱情一旦入了人间，自然人还原成社会人，这块玉璧，便只有碎裂一途。这一幕“玉碎”是那样的惊心动魄，那样的华彩和决绝，使得玉璧上隐隐的裂纹，永远没有了被发现的可能。张爱玲写的《霸王别姬》里，虞姬的最后一句话是：“我比较喜欢那样的收梢。”同样，这样一个“玉碎”的收梢，其实对于张殷二人，尤其是对于殷素素，未必不是一件幸事。 只是，想到十九岁的殷素素，在海船中犹豫不愿放银针射谢逊，只因怕回了大陆张翠山会舍她而去，这样才换得冰火岛十年夫妻；而十年之后回到大陆，二十九岁的殷素素，却仍然挽不住张翠山为了义气自刎，不禁黯然……这样的苦心，真是“琢磨颇望成全璧”啊。
张翠山“死志甚坚”的时候，记得向张三丰托付无忌，却并没有半句话关照妻子。可是，利刃断喉的那一刻，他的心里可曾掠过殷素素的笑颜么？垂柳扁舟、斜风细雨、冰海危船、惊涛骇浪、岛上猎熊、爱子降生，这些无比珍贵的生活点滴，在那一瞬间，难道都被强烈的道德感驱赶得精光？“不管天上地下，人间海底，咱们永远在一起。”这誓言当年出自张翠山的口，而最终使它得以实践的，是殷素素。 人们通常认为，“正邪之恋”的代表是令狐冲和任盈盈。其实这两个人却是共有隐士的澹泊胸襟，性格在本质上也都属于洒脱随和一类，他们结合的障碍只是纯粹的门户之见，而不像张殷那样，是因为成长背景不同导致的性格、价值观的根本性矛盾。任盈盈更是比殷素素乖巧许多，在令狐冲身边完全就是个温顺小女生，虽然有时也说一两句“宁可一剑刺死了你”的狠话，可是那已经是情人间的玩笑，何况她极懂得拿捏分寸。一部笑傲看下来，像张殷那般经常折射出思想格格不入的对话，在冲盈间竟找不到什么。说来也奇怪，满口仁义道德、强调“正道”的岳不群，偏偏教出令狐冲这样真正洒脱澹泊不存成见的徒弟；张三丰智慧通达、毫不拘泥，最心爱的弟子张翠山却偏偏是那么一个严谨迂直的人。
张翠山无疑比令狐冲更像一个典型的正派弟子，而将殷素素、黄蓉、任盈盈、敏敏特穆尔这几个都被称作“妖女”的女子一比便知，“妖气”最重的，性情最强的，乃是殷素素。张殷的恋情才是真正的“正邪之恋”，真实可感，却也无奈而残酷。落花流水春去也，天上人间。也许只有在冰火岛那样的世外桃源，才容得下这一对璧人吧。 （注：本文曾发在TOM游戏论坛，用的名字是 白虹贯日 。）
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Some jokes to relax upon.....hahahahaa......
前几天刚考完期末考，好心的教授留下了他的电话，我深知自己考得并不理想，心想打电话去问候一下教授，顺便打听自己的成绩，或者干脆向教授求情。
电话通了之后，我发现教授家竟然进步到使用电话语音服务!
电话中传来教授的声音：“来者是何人?是同事请按1，是我太太的朋友请按2，是我朋友请按3，学生请按9。”
于是我按了9。
接着教授的声音又出现了：“有啥事?问候请按1，问成绩请按2，讨论问题请按3，其他请按4。” 于是我按了2。
接着教授的声音又问：“你哪班的?1A请按1，1B请按2，1C请按……”’
于是我选了我的班级。
“报上你的学号，由按键输入，输入完请按#字键，重新输入请按*宇键。”
我乖乖的将自己的学号输入，接着便听到计算机的运作声音。
当我正期待听到我的成绩从电话的另一端传来时，教授的声音再次响起——
“除夕前有没有空?有空请按1，没空请按2。”
我一点都不知道教授为什么想知道这些事情，但是我想我寒假也没啥活动，于是我按了1。
语音继续着：“最近手头紧不紧?紧请按1，不紧请按2。”
不会吧!教授这么关心学生?难道想对学生伸出援手?正好我最近的手头非常紧，也许可以向教授周转一下，所以我按了1。
接着从电话的那头传采：“你被当了!本电话将在两秒后自动切断。”
错愕的我愣在电话前……
电话通了之后，我发现教授家竟然进步到使用电话语音服务!
电话中传来教授的声音：“来者是何人?是同事请按1，是我太太的朋友请按2，是我朋友请按3，学生请按9。”
于是我按了9。
接着教授的声音又出现了：“有啥事?问候请按1，问成绩请按2，讨论问题请按3，其他请按4。” 于是我按了2。
接着教授的声音又问：“你哪班的?1A请按1，1B请按2，1C请按……”’
于是我选了我的班级。
“报上你的学号，由按键输入，输入完请按#字键，重新输入请按*宇键。”
我乖乖的将自己的学号输入，接着便听到计算机的运作声音。
当我正期待听到我的成绩从电话的另一端传来时，教授的声音再次响起——
“除夕前有没有空?有空请按1，没空请按2。”
我一点都不知道教授为什么想知道这些事情，但是我想我寒假也没啥活动，于是我按了1。
语音继续着：“最近手头紧不紧?紧请按1，不紧请按2。”
不会吧!教授这么关心学生?难道想对学生伸出援手?正好我最近的手头非常紧，也许可以向教授周转一下，所以我按了1。
接着从电话的那头传采：“你被当了!本电话将在两秒后自动切断。”
错愕的我愣在电话前……
past life!
Your Past Life:
The Soldier -- You may have spent your past life defending the rights of others and your country.
The Soldier -- You may have spent your past life defending the rights of others and your country.
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Wat a fantastic stroke of luck!!!!
Cant imagine this.........i went thru this yday.....
in the morning i went to sch ...originally suppose to be my free day...but ah..i can finish my work n i need my lecturer's advice so my fren n i went to c her.....
When i get off Bus....a mist condense in my spec...so i take off n wipe it away......at this moment the frame juzt burst out.....the screw came loose n i had my lens on my palms....then as i struggles to place it back...the lens frop to the pool of murky water....on the floor...n it broke....actually chip off a piece......so miserable sia......i got no $$$ liao n my spec just broke.....haiz...then i went to c lecturer lor...
she n me had a nice chat after grading my work.......got improvement....but still dun get the main idea....she say i will make it...but i doubt it....she very clever when i ask something specific about exam format.....she answered me in exchange for news on the teaching conducted by the teaching asst......hahaha.....i got sly.......neutral answer....
then go n mit mum go c doc.....very jialat.......my illness not yet recovered....
then go optical shop........wah...my eyesight failing......choose the frame also took me so long.....wah...140buck leh......burn a hole in my pocket........
Thursday, 28/10
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i was the tutor for the day of my tutorial...all i did was read the questions...coz i really duno wat the paper is about...then topic change to pokemon n i was so shocked...i din watch cartoons for long time....haiz....
in the morning i went to sch ...originally suppose to be my free day...but ah..i can finish my work n i need my lecturer's advice so my fren n i went to c her.....
When i get off Bus....a mist condense in my spec...so i take off n wipe it away......at this moment the frame juzt burst out.....the screw came loose n i had my lens on my palms....then as i struggles to place it back...the lens frop to the pool of murky water....on the floor...n it broke....actually chip off a piece......so miserable sia......i got no $$$ liao n my spec just broke.....haiz...then i went to c lecturer lor...
she n me had a nice chat after grading my work.......got improvement....but still dun get the main idea....she say i will make it...but i doubt it....she very clever when i ask something specific about exam format.....she answered me in exchange for news on the teaching conducted by the teaching asst......hahaha.....i got sly.......neutral answer....
then go n mit mum go c doc.....very jialat.......my illness not yet recovered....
then go optical shop........wah...my eyesight failing......choose the frame also took me so long.....wah...140buck leh......burn a hole in my pocket........
Thursday, 28/10
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i was the tutor for the day of my tutorial...all i did was read the questions...coz i really duno wat the paper is about...then topic change to pokemon n i was so shocked...i din watch cartoons for long time....haiz....
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Very true of the romance novels
hahaha....take a look at this..very interesting
打破传统之未婚先孕
昨天看了燕然的<找个理由>,实在是忍不住想跟大家分享一下.
实在是太佩服女猪了.
传统言情讲到女猪未婚先孕无非是以下几种情况:
1.男猪因误会女猪而与女猪分手,女猪发现自己怀孕,独自抚养孩子.N年后,男猪与女猪相遇,发现孩子,于是误会解开皆大欢喜.
2.男猪家长看不起女猪,于是乎派代表(通常是男猪母)与女猪私下谈判,女猪很有骨气的拒绝男母开出的支票,隐瞒怀孕的事远走他方.男猪因女猪的突然消失而开始游戏人间.N年后无意中发现一小男孩(注意非得是男孩,不然男猪母还是不会承认女猪)非常之亲切且与自己"一个模子里刻出来",于是^^^^^^并且^^^^^^,又是皆大欢喜.
3.男猪因仇恨而接近女猪,引诱女猪,强迫女猪.女猪拼命逃离男猪,最后终于逃脱成功(当然靠女猪自己是绝对逃不了的,这就需要女配的协助了,或者男猪发现自己爱她,而她居然恨自己,于是只得放手).女猪逃脱后发现自己爱上了他,还怀了他的骨肉,又没勇气面对他的恨(她到现在还以为男猪恨她),只好含辛茹苦把孩子带大.又是N年后,男女猪无意中(很有可能是男猪故意)相遇,发现原来对方是爱自己的,^^^^^^不用说了吧.
4.^^^^^^
通常我们称这类言情为地雷,实在很有扫扫的必要,但是燕然用这种老套的情节写出不同的面貌.
<找个理由>中女猪很拜金(这通常是女配的特质),为了要嫁给男猪不惜一切手段,男猪虽然知道孩子是自己的,但还是很鄙视女猪,迫于女猪的威胁只得娶她,婚后相敬如冰,加上婆婆千方百计离间女猪母子的感情,男猪对女猪的不信任,搞到最后女猪终于受不了放弃一切留书(当然是离婚协议书了)出走.
传统的颠覆到此为止,以后的部分纯属赚人热泪.
女猪的一句话让我印象深刻
"是，我是想飞上枝头变凤凰，想钓个金龟婿，想不劳而获，想过少奶奶的生活，买漂亮的时装，戴名贵的珠宝，出入上流社会，这离谱吗？有哪个少女不梦想变成灰姑娘？你认为我下贱，为了嫁你不择手段，卑躬屈膝，你认为我想吗？如果我是石油大亨的千金，我还用这样吗？ 至于追求财富，这不是现实的社会所推崇的吗？每一个人不都在做吗？只是方法各异罢了。一个穷学生，我所做的没有伤害任何人，一切全在法律与道德允许的范围内，我错在哪里了？而你们为了敛取财富，用尽手段，巧取豪夺，为富不仁，你敢拍胸口说你所花的每一分钱全是血汗钱，全是干干净净的，没逼别人跳楼自杀，贪婪如你们，有什么资格教训我?"
打破传统之未婚先孕
昨天看了燕然的<找个理由>,实在是忍不住想跟大家分享一下.
实在是太佩服女猪了.
传统言情讲到女猪未婚先孕无非是以下几种情况:
1.男猪因误会女猪而与女猪分手,女猪发现自己怀孕,独自抚养孩子.N年后,男猪与女猪相遇,发现孩子,于是误会解开皆大欢喜.
2.男猪家长看不起女猪,于是乎派代表(通常是男猪母)与女猪私下谈判,女猪很有骨气的拒绝男母开出的支票,隐瞒怀孕的事远走他方.男猪因女猪的突然消失而开始游戏人间.N年后无意中发现一小男孩(注意非得是男孩,不然男猪母还是不会承认女猪)非常之亲切且与自己"一个模子里刻出来",于是^^^^^^并且^^^^^^,又是皆大欢喜.
3.男猪因仇恨而接近女猪,引诱女猪,强迫女猪.女猪拼命逃离男猪,最后终于逃脱成功(当然靠女猪自己是绝对逃不了的,这就需要女配的协助了,或者男猪发现自己爱她,而她居然恨自己,于是只得放手).女猪逃脱后发现自己爱上了他,还怀了他的骨肉,又没勇气面对他的恨(她到现在还以为男猪恨她),只好含辛茹苦把孩子带大.又是N年后,男女猪无意中(很有可能是男猪故意)相遇,发现原来对方是爱自己的,^^^^^^不用说了吧.
4.^^^^^^
通常我们称这类言情为地雷,实在很有扫扫的必要,但是燕然用这种老套的情节写出不同的面貌.
<找个理由>中女猪很拜金(这通常是女配的特质),为了要嫁给男猪不惜一切手段,男猪虽然知道孩子是自己的,但还是很鄙视女猪,迫于女猪的威胁只得娶她,婚后相敬如冰,加上婆婆千方百计离间女猪母子的感情,男猪对女猪的不信任,搞到最后女猪终于受不了放弃一切留书(当然是离婚协议书了)出走.
传统的颠覆到此为止,以后的部分纯属赚人热泪.
女猪的一句话让我印象深刻
"是，我是想飞上枝头变凤凰，想钓个金龟婿，想不劳而获，想过少奶奶的生活，买漂亮的时装，戴名贵的珠宝，出入上流社会，这离谱吗？有哪个少女不梦想变成灰姑娘？你认为我下贱，为了嫁你不择手段，卑躬屈膝，你认为我想吗？如果我是石油大亨的千金，我还用这样吗？ 至于追求财富，这不是现实的社会所推崇的吗？每一个人不都在做吗？只是方法各异罢了。一个穷学生，我所做的没有伤害任何人，一切全在法律与道德允许的范围内，我错在哪里了？而你们为了敛取财富，用尽手段，巧取豪夺，为富不仁，你敢拍胸口说你所花的每一分钱全是血汗钱，全是干干净净的，没逼别人跳楼自杀，贪婪如你们，有什么资格教训我?"
LONG LONG TIME NO UPDATE!!!!
Sorry Pals....I am VEry EXTRMELY busy...so do bear with me!!!!
Let me update a few things...hope u dont mind my longwinded ness!!!
5/10, Tuesday
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hahhahaha.....wo de yi de xiao...ya deo yi de xiao......
i am laughing like siao...coz i did the most crazy thing today......
i answered a very simple( to me) and important question in front of the whole lecture group today.....here is the picture
the lecturer was very pissed off when a few pple tok, including the front row...there got 1 act cute gal who got scolded for toking in another class...
he warned them 3X, yet they very buey zidong.....so he dropped a bombshell"wat is the difference between capitalism and modernity?"
instantaneously.....everyone quieten now.......sum1 tried to answer but incomplete.So he said,"i shall continue the class after some1 answer me."he pulled a chair towards him and settle down, sipping from a can of coke...enjoying himself...
then i tot mayb some1 knows it..then i dun nid to answer coz i not very certain....then me n frenz start to discuss n it refresh my memory.....
then i think he is serious of not starting the class.....normally when no1 answer, lecturer will continue wif the class...egged on by my frenz....i had no choice but to say it loudly....
he is impressed n say"excellent!" and he gets up n started class..
classmates were clapping their hands for me from behind....
my frenz n groupmate were commenting i am a hero...
who knows i am trembling n blabbering..my face was flushed after i said it...my hands cold n tremble....i hate speaking aloud........
he didnt manage to finish all the lecture notes n told us to read on our own, included in exam some more...haiz.......
12/10, Tuesday
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Terrible sia..i overspend.....jialat...i think i beta stop my spending spree....but wat have i bought? i cant seem to rembr anything major...scared the hell out of me when i realsie i have got oli few bucks left in my Piggy.....oh god...my piggy has become the kids u c in starvation situation......wat am i going to do????? can i give her some of my fats???
16/10 Saturday
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i start to feel very...extremely uncomfy.......i have running nose and cant seem to stop...worse still, i got blocked ears....cant seem to hear anythign soft....but i had to go out wif mum.....haiz..no choice....bro tried to call me....but my hp in bag...cant help in noisy settings...then suddenly i caught it but it was too late......he came to find us.......i got a huge tirade from him!!!! for the rest of the day, he provoked me all the time...so mad sia...not my fault that i cant hear....noisy settings, blocked ear and running nose are deadly combination..he wun hear it......haiz....
mama pity me so she buy some peppermint leaves to boil for me drink....hehehehe.....thz ma....muack!!!
17/10 Sunday
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now i know, misfortune dun come singlehandly, they will bring partners!!!!!! my mum hurried me out of sudden to c a very strange lady.....so i rush out of my room...but as u know...my cable connecting to the router on the floor....i din c it so my left big toe caught it in between....and like i was playing rugby...catching the ball in landing position........except it is concrete and i am having a fall!!!! ouch..i was shocked and angry that i fell.....then i felt sharp pain..but think it is ok....by nite time i know the severity of the situation..my big toe cant bend!!!!!!!!and walking hurt like SNB!!!!!
resigned to my fate, i get some hot water from the boiler n do hot compress n rub some medicated oil......heng...no need to c "die-da" sinseh..........
Pearl Harbor extreme cool!!!!! hahaha....two episodes sia...but i have a question...y does JOsh Hartnett have to die? y not that Damn Ben Affleck? he survived Armangaddon...he must fall in Pearl Harbor.....isnt it a cycle?y must shuaige die??? sob sob...so sad.....
19/10 Tuesday
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i feel my flu getting serious.....very bad....but i cant go c doc..i got project to hand in tml....nid to do a lot of things as i discover that i copy wrong things..have to re-do....magic hour again......
20/10 Wednesday
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i sleep at 4 am this morning n i get up at 6am...yawnz.....i was late for the 1st lecture...i din mind liao....the lecturer quite angry sia..but i bo bian lah......
my fren ask how's the project coz she seen me yesterday...i shown her the work...she says, impressive...u rushed all these out????
then heng my translation tutor din say anything abt my interpretation.....u know y? coz i din do note-taking....i did instant translation.....suppose to be the difficult part...but i went thru it fine for three times....whew!!!!
21/10 Thursday
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Buay tahan liao...i was forced by dad like sending prisoner....off to the chung hwa clinic.....my family doc away on course......so i went in register...staff so slow n a bit duff on the system used..cant type my name.....then i blurt out my telephone number wrongly.....i say05 instead of 55.......haiz.......my dad glared at me.......
then wait for my turn........long wait...i manage to finish my translation h/w......
then went in ...old lady..she fidget very long on computer that i want to fall asleep....she din seem capable at 1st glance...maybe i was wrong....then she ask about my name.....very strange meh? she ask me how to write......i tot she cant do it on her computer again.....after that..she ask me,"are u a PRC?"
i was like "WHAT?!!!!!" i am a true,blueblood SINGAPOREAN!!!!!! furthermore, a hybrid between Malaysian n Singaporean shouldnt yield PRC, Peranakan mayb......
then she also shocked n say,"u Singaporean?" i nodded ...barely concealed my shock n anger....i was given a slip of paper wif my data all on it b4 i went in the room...i gave the slip to her n she did even c my NRIC had my birthyear on it...how can i be a PRC???!!!! ridiculous.....
then she key in things some more...suddenly turn towards me and ask," shen me shi? (wat?)"
i was blur for 3 sec......i was there becoz "wo you shi" otherwise i would be sitting there......then it dawn on me that she was asking for symptoms.......then i was like shd ask,"you she me zheng zhuang?(wat are ur symptoms?)"
then after that i ask if my voice will be ok after a feel days' rest? she replied an answer that nearly make me fall off my chair, "chi yao jiu hui hao lor (eat medication n u will b fine!!!!)" isnt it obvious.....i am asking how long will it take roughly..coz i got a presentation coming up and oral.....
then she told me to gargle with saltwater..i nearly rolled up my eyes.....wat an TRADITIONAL n useless method....now confirm she is very incompetent.......
I told this to my parent...both roar wif laughter over PRC part....start calling me zhong-guo-mei....mum even suggest i play with the doc by using faked beijing accent to reply the following, "oh, ni zhen me zhi dao? ni tai li hai le. (oh, how did u know? u are very clever.)"
i got three lines down my forehead.........the medicine very bitter n the pills so big.....poor me......have to drink coz my thing pileing up liao..
22/10 Friday
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Short day turn long day.....i mit groupmate..n pple suay me say i am very hyperactive today....full of ideas...meaning i not so clever during the normal days lah....
then i rushed to do work b4 i c my lecturer.....mit two OGL mates occupying the left n right side of me.....i felt crows juz flew past my head......
the one of the right say nothing....i was absorbed in that i din c him after much later....he changed a lot..so i not sure if him....the left one form a powerful tension as he sit beside me.....he called me n of course i respond..i din know wat to say n i mispronounced his name......actually i behave like siao kids online so i afraid to c him also..he ask very sensitively if i dun like to c him? i quickly say no....but i was trying to rush my work, nid to hand in which is true.....then he say oh......ok...carry on...dun mind me....
i heaved a sigh of relief inwardly......i continued wif my work...he looked at me very intently on how i work..i feel so uncomfy.....then when he left...i juz say goodbye.....at this time, the guy on my right start to fidget....he recognised the other guy n of course me....but he din say anything n so i din say anything...
i got a worse than ever imagined lecture from my lecturer on my work...she literally blasted at me for my slip-shortness......my whole work was ruined at the end of her tirade.....i nid to re-do a new piece.....haiz.....u know wat class this is? translation......
Let me update a few things...hope u dont mind my longwinded ness!!!
5/10, Tuesday
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hahhahaha.....wo de yi de xiao...ya deo yi de xiao......
i am laughing like siao...coz i did the most crazy thing today......
i answered a very simple( to me) and important question in front of the whole lecture group today.....here is the picture
the lecturer was very pissed off when a few pple tok, including the front row...there got 1 act cute gal who got scolded for toking in another class...
he warned them 3X, yet they very buey zidong.....so he dropped a bombshell"wat is the difference between capitalism and modernity?"
instantaneously.....everyone quieten now.......sum1 tried to answer but incomplete.So he said,"i shall continue the class after some1 answer me."he pulled a chair towards him and settle down, sipping from a can of coke...enjoying himself...
then i tot mayb some1 knows it..then i dun nid to answer coz i not very certain....then me n frenz start to discuss n it refresh my memory.....
then i think he is serious of not starting the class.....normally when no1 answer, lecturer will continue wif the class...egged on by my frenz....i had no choice but to say it loudly....
he is impressed n say"excellent!" and he gets up n started class..
classmates were clapping their hands for me from behind....
my frenz n groupmate were commenting i am a hero...
who knows i am trembling n blabbering..my face was flushed after i said it...my hands cold n tremble....i hate speaking aloud........
he didnt manage to finish all the lecture notes n told us to read on our own, included in exam some more...haiz.......
12/10, Tuesday
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Terrible sia..i overspend.....jialat...i think i beta stop my spending spree....but wat have i bought? i cant seem to rembr anything major...scared the hell out of me when i realsie i have got oli few bucks left in my Piggy.....oh god...my piggy has become the kids u c in starvation situation......wat am i going to do????? can i give her some of my fats???
16/10 Saturday
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i start to feel very...extremely uncomfy.......i have running nose and cant seem to stop...worse still, i got blocked ears....cant seem to hear anythign soft....but i had to go out wif mum.....haiz..no choice....bro tried to call me....but my hp in bag...cant help in noisy settings...then suddenly i caught it but it was too late......he came to find us.......i got a huge tirade from him!!!! for the rest of the day, he provoked me all the time...so mad sia...not my fault that i cant hear....noisy settings, blocked ear and running nose are deadly combination..he wun hear it......haiz....
mama pity me so she buy some peppermint leaves to boil for me drink....hehehehe.....thz ma....muack!!!
17/10 Sunday
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now i know, misfortune dun come singlehandly, they will bring partners!!!!!! my mum hurried me out of sudden to c a very strange lady.....so i rush out of my room...but as u know...my cable connecting to the router on the floor....i din c it so my left big toe caught it in between....and like i was playing rugby...catching the ball in landing position........except it is concrete and i am having a fall!!!! ouch..i was shocked and angry that i fell.....then i felt sharp pain..but think it is ok....by nite time i know the severity of the situation..my big toe cant bend!!!!!!!!and walking hurt like SNB!!!!!
resigned to my fate, i get some hot water from the boiler n do hot compress n rub some medicated oil......heng...no need to c "die-da" sinseh..........
Pearl Harbor extreme cool!!!!! hahaha....two episodes sia...but i have a question...y does JOsh Hartnett have to die? y not that Damn Ben Affleck? he survived Armangaddon...he must fall in Pearl Harbor.....isnt it a cycle?y must shuaige die??? sob sob...so sad.....
19/10 Tuesday
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i feel my flu getting serious.....very bad....but i cant go c doc..i got project to hand in tml....nid to do a lot of things as i discover that i copy wrong things..have to re-do....magic hour again......
20/10 Wednesday
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i sleep at 4 am this morning n i get up at 6am...yawnz.....i was late for the 1st lecture...i din mind liao....the lecturer quite angry sia..but i bo bian lah......
my fren ask how's the project coz she seen me yesterday...i shown her the work...she says, impressive...u rushed all these out????
then heng my translation tutor din say anything abt my interpretation.....u know y? coz i din do note-taking....i did instant translation.....suppose to be the difficult part...but i went thru it fine for three times....whew!!!!
21/10 Thursday
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Buay tahan liao...i was forced by dad like sending prisoner....off to the chung hwa clinic.....my family doc away on course......so i went in register...staff so slow n a bit duff on the system used..cant type my name.....then i blurt out my telephone number wrongly.....i say05 instead of 55.......haiz.......my dad glared at me.......
then wait for my turn........long wait...i manage to finish my translation h/w......
then went in ...old lady..she fidget very long on computer that i want to fall asleep....she din seem capable at 1st glance...maybe i was wrong....then she ask about my name.....very strange meh? she ask me how to write......i tot she cant do it on her computer again.....after that..she ask me,"are u a PRC?"
i was like "WHAT?!!!!!" i am a true,blueblood SINGAPOREAN!!!!!! furthermore, a hybrid between Malaysian n Singaporean shouldnt yield PRC, Peranakan mayb......
then she also shocked n say,"u Singaporean?" i nodded ...barely concealed my shock n anger....i was given a slip of paper wif my data all on it b4 i went in the room...i gave the slip to her n she did even c my NRIC had my birthyear on it...how can i be a PRC???!!!! ridiculous.....
then she key in things some more...suddenly turn towards me and ask," shen me shi? (wat?)"
i was blur for 3 sec......i was there becoz "wo you shi" otherwise i would be sitting there......then it dawn on me that she was asking for symptoms.......then i was like shd ask,"you she me zheng zhuang?(wat are ur symptoms?)"
then after that i ask if my voice will be ok after a feel days' rest? she replied an answer that nearly make me fall off my chair, "chi yao jiu hui hao lor (eat medication n u will b fine!!!!)" isnt it obvious.....i am asking how long will it take roughly..coz i got a presentation coming up and oral.....
then she told me to gargle with saltwater..i nearly rolled up my eyes.....wat an TRADITIONAL n useless method....now confirm she is very incompetent.......
I told this to my parent...both roar wif laughter over PRC part....start calling me zhong-guo-mei....mum even suggest i play with the doc by using faked beijing accent to reply the following, "oh, ni zhen me zhi dao? ni tai li hai le. (oh, how did u know? u are very clever.)"
i got three lines down my forehead.........the medicine very bitter n the pills so big.....poor me......have to drink coz my thing pileing up liao..
22/10 Friday
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Short day turn long day.....i mit groupmate..n pple suay me say i am very hyperactive today....full of ideas...meaning i not so clever during the normal days lah....
then i rushed to do work b4 i c my lecturer.....mit two OGL mates occupying the left n right side of me.....i felt crows juz flew past my head......
the one of the right say nothing....i was absorbed in that i din c him after much later....he changed a lot..so i not sure if him....the left one form a powerful tension as he sit beside me.....he called me n of course i respond..i din know wat to say n i mispronounced his name......actually i behave like siao kids online so i afraid to c him also..he ask very sensitively if i dun like to c him? i quickly say no....but i was trying to rush my work, nid to hand in which is true.....then he say oh......ok...carry on...dun mind me....
i heaved a sigh of relief inwardly......i continued wif my work...he looked at me very intently on how i work..i feel so uncomfy.....then when he left...i juz say goodbye.....at this time, the guy on my right start to fidget....he recognised the other guy n of course me....but he din say anything n so i din say anything...
i got a worse than ever imagined lecture from my lecturer on my work...she literally blasted at me for my slip-shortness......my whole work was ruined at the end of her tirade.....i nid to re-do a new piece.....haiz.....u know wat class this is? translation......
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
wah...sure or not?
You're a curious baby, and proud of it. Anything
that you haven't seen or heard of before
perplexes you, and you just HAVE to know more
about it.
What Kind Of Baby Are You? (Pictures)
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wah....so chiam
You have White Wings! Pure and innocent, your
kindness attracts other people toward you. You
can be shy and quite, but when others know you
better, they realize you are fun and bubbly.
You hate it when other around you are sad, and
always see the good in everyone and everything.
Chances are you either help in the shelter, or
are a tutor in school. You are very kind and
friendly, but also quite nave. Dont be fooled
by looks. Some things do go bump in the night.
What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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Sunday, September 26, 2004
wah....so nice!!!1
You came from heaven. Your gole in life is to help
others and to make the world a better place.
Some call you weak, but in reality your soul is
very strong. If only more people were like
you...
Where did you come from?
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Min's Birthday Celebration!!!!
Finally after my test, I can relax sia...Way so long haven c them...duno how have they been...Anyway...I start my day cleaning the hse....SURPRISE???!!!
Well, becoz sum1's coming to our hse so have to put on the best behavior n situation sia...A bit sly ah......But that's the way things are mah...Show the best side...dun let mama malu mah....wait got no food to eat... then visit Val who's cleaning the hse....like wat mama say she's a very hardworking gal...me if left on my own...will die lah.....hehehehe.....anyway ask her to return my very very overdue book....Thanks ya, gal!!!!
Came n gone and i din go n mit Vallerie and the rest...sorry sia....Those kids of my cousins.....buay tahan sia...if my kids , will definitely spank their buttocks....kid little terrors....jump here, jump there....touch here touch there.....wah....cant stand sia....juz like their dad when they were young...alwaz bully me......create havoc........then my bro a bit siao when pple came.....he alwaz say i too fake.....u know y?
B'coz I WAS TOO FRIENDLY!!!!!
c'mon.....it is simple and friendly gesture when pple came to ur hse..u nid to c if they nid anything....n smile rite???!!! this guy call me FAKE!!!!...boiling sia.....Y not say himself fake when he can tok sweetly to his frenz on phone while roaring at us????!!!!!
Then the celebration at marina bay...i tot me n xin were running late...i panicked a little but xin was so zai!!!!! she steady ah...say dun worry...we wun b late...tru enuff we arrive very early....hehehe..then we mit liling at the mrt stn...the gals call us to go n book seats...but hor..i find a wide $$$$ differencefor shops on the left and shops on the right...the shops on left is $12..while the other's lowest is $9...so i phone n tok then decide to get to the $9 shop...cheap mah...me poor...
Turn out tat the waiter want to cheat my $$$...he told me $10..when the gals at the mrt stn say $9...i told him n he say:"9 ah....9 lor!!!!". Wah...if i din say...does that me we still nid to pay 1dollar more?....then the whole cooking process is a terror...everyone got attack by the oil.....haiz....squirting here n there.......i kana many times lor...that i nearly want to hide under the table....Next time when times improve n my piggy get fatter...we can go Seoul Garden....safer sia.....
Realise that the gals late coz chose pressie for min...got a 37degree bag for her.....then we laugh n joke along the way.....I repeat once more i am not going to do pole dancing ah.........ask ah gu to bring u c the real thingy.....
we sort of decide to celebrate xmas in sentosa...buy a big package n play till crazy.....hehehehe
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Updates for the Week!!!!
as u all know, now is my holidays...hehehehe....So there wun be much happening since I din go out n coop at home to study for my test.....But a few things happen
First is my dear Cybercrime lecturer.....She together wif our dear Tutor, decided that my team will do another debate next week which mean I have to hand in the troublesome n tedious debate brief again by And....I aredi very hectic wif my project liao.....Yet she still gif me this kinda crap!!!! Make me go down to sch on wed to discuss.
then Xin came into the pic...That poor gal...She fail a few items for her NAFA and envy me no nid to go for it....she want to tok to me about it....chitchat a bit but I din have time for her since I have test....So hopefully..I am able to chat wif her today!!!!
Finally, yday's test...I nearly vomit blood n want to bleed myself to death....y leh...the test was realli ez...far too ez...anyway who study wil know how to do.....but me too happy till i overlooked certain points and there goes my marks.....sob.sob.....
Worse still, i saw HIM sitting right in the row behind me when i went into the LT for test...so when i turn accidentally, he looked at me while i looked at him.....SHOCKED sia.......wah kau...i never sit so close to him b4 leh............very fan.........guess i am not steady enuff....otherwise i wun let this kinda of feelings hurt my grades....
Monday, September 20, 2004
Saturday, September 18, 2004
oh realli so??!!! i duno..wat do u all think?
Your soul is bound to the Rose Bud: The
Naive.
"I keep all of my secrets somewhere inside
and though I haven't let myself shine to the
world, I'm good for something but too good to
give to you."
The Rose Bud is associated with innocence,
curiosity, and confidence. It is governed by
the god Cupid and its sign is The Dewdrop, or
Puppy Love.
As a Rose Bud, you may have grand ideas about love
and you may well be inexperienced. You tend to
be optomistic, idealistic, and curious, but
it's just because you like being a positive
person. You also may have high thoughts of
yourself, and can come off a bit conceited, but
it's just a mask to hide your lack of
experience.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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moon??!!!
You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.
http://www.stevee.com/
Which Tarot Card Are You?
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Friday, September 17, 2004
hahaha...very interesting!!
Paige,
You have confidence in your ability to get things done. You are a leader among friends, and a good one too. You are responsible and like to challenge yourself by taking up difficult tasks - and you usually succeed.
You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.
You are tough, hard-working and responsible. When you are assigned to do something, you will do your best no matter how difficult the job at hand might be.
You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.
You have confidence in your ability to get things done. You are a leader among friends, and a good one too. You are responsible and like to challenge yourself by taking up difficult tasks - and you usually succeed.
You're very careful and circumspect in all matters but you won't face any problems until they actually happen. Also you're a kind and sensitive person.
You are tough, hard-working and responsible. When you are assigned to do something, you will do your best no matter how difficult the job at hand might be.
You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.