Strezful tues!

As usual, my tues did start off realli well...i slept late as usual and brought me a tremendous headache at the end of the day.

Where ever i sit in the LT, I will alwz get to c this ex-fren's ex...veri sian sia...not that i not like him in terms of his work or watever,i juz took an instant dislike at him which i duno y. I thot I was my luck n fate to c him wif such regularity...but as Val pointed out later, it is coincidence since we in same sch same fac same dept and I dislike him coz he and i shared a similar experience that i was reminded of it whenever i see him. He is not a bad guy as i know, i juz couldnt figure out what i dun like about him. Mayb Val is right.

Then the last lecture of the day was to watch movie!!! It is an Italian film called "Cinema Paradiso". Duno if u all heard about it, but i think i took and instant liking to the film. It is set in a small rural town where a young boy, Toto developed an unusual friendship with a middle-aged movie machine operator, Afrendo. Afrendo taught Toto how to operate on the machine as the young boy was so interested in the machine and movie house which was situated in the centre of the town. However, a fire destroyed the movie house and took away Afrendo's eyesight, though he was dragged to safety by Toto. Then Afrendo told Toto to get away from the dead town after Toto's national svc and a loss of his first love. When Toto, came back rich and famous, Afrendo was dead and the movie house which was the epitome and the heart of the town was tore away to make way for multi-storey carpark. TV is the hype then instead of movies.

Very touching and depressing story that i was so touched and emotional after it...I even miz my lang lab practise to watch the full length. When i walk towards the bustop, I saw ex-fren and later then i realise it was her birthday. I was stunned to c her...i din expect to c anyone after an upheaval of my emotions. i was very very depressed. I was very emotionally uptight and i think i cried on the bus on the way back home. I was thinking about the past. If anything could turn back time, I wouldnt have to go through all these and i will still be a much appire person than the shadowny streak in my character now. I realli hate myself for this but there is no way i can help it...I feel so sad...so sad for myself...y have i come this far?