A funny day!!!

I still went to school as usual coz I realli cant afford to miss lor...So i rest in the morning and i go in the afternoon.
Then i accompanied Qin to engineering for lunch.
While we chat, a loud "thud" was heard by me!
I turned around n saw a bird (duno what species) lying motionless on the ground!
I am scared on handling birds n stuff. So I see how it is like from far.
It is gasping for air n i think it hit the metal chair during it fall and maybe concuss abit..
I told Qin about it.
She is scared too...We dare not touch it. I feel so helpless. I chanted slient prayers for the bird.
Suddenly a girl came n scoop it up...think she is going to save it.
Whew!! Then i saw its partners (bird's) crowding around. They flew around, hopping on the floor to find it.
Why would a stupid bird get knocked out???
I duno...
What will you do if you are my case???


Second thing I want to comment on is that kinship is getting less important for me. I cant say it is totally not my fault but somehow I think I lacked of it. So often I would admire n even envy those with a big family n can tolerate each other.

Now you may wonder why I said that? Here is the story.
I was searching for Qin in the Sci canteen. Then I passed by a gal coming in front of me. I was searching n turning my head n I din pay attention to who's infront of me. I know its a long-haired gal.
As she passed, she gave me a long look. I am puzzled.
I continued to think of her as i searched for Qin. Then I realise that it is my god-cousin.
For god's sake, i din even know she was there in Sci. Tot she was in Arts. Din expect her to be there. She din even say hi n gave me that look for what????
Am I expected to say Hi first?
In Chinese customs, isnt it like the younger ones respect the elders?
I rembr the 1st time I saw her, I said Hi 1st. Then she look surprised then.
Not to say that I am petty, but rather what I mean is that I tried to be nice. They dun reciprocate.
Is that kinship???
You guys might say that well she may not have seen you.
But let me tell you this, this is not the first time I have seen her. I am blur as usual so many times when i see her back then I rembr it is her. Sometimes I tried to day Hi, she juz shun away.
Whose fault???
I realli duno. Am I thinking too much? Is she looking down on me that she dun even wish to see me?
But guess what? she ask me a lot of questions when she tried to get into JC or Uni. haha....so that means I had some use value then but now I dun have it issit? So she can ditch me???

Anyway, back to the part where I met her. I went on finding Qin n brush the matter aside. Trying not to care. Then I went to the Co-Op. There I met a guy whom I was in the same class last semester n had to borrow a book from him. (The book belonged to the lecturer. ) as usual, i scanned at the far back n missed him standing in front. He said Hi. Then i saw him. I said Hi too then went off coz i din see Qin.

I cant help but wonder n sighed. A accquaintance compared to a kin. Which one is more closer?
What a world difference in treatment that I got.
Some1 whom I not even consider a friend bother to say Hi while some1 whom I have played with in the childhood and so on, ignore me.

I tot I am inept in relationships. It is totally my fault. If that is the case, I am not going to pull all the blame to myself. IT is not my fault. Damnit!!!
IT IS NOT MY FAULT!
JUSt that I AM NOT fated to have!

Friends are better than kins!

So Friends, do not disappoint me!

Or else, there will not be anything that will keep me sane!