I had two tutorials today consecutively....starting at 2pm.....i was rushing to my class room..on the way, i passed an angmoh getting off taxi....i din care him...till when i was climbing stairs under the hot sun...
suddenly he said, "Hey there!"
Out of curiousity i turned around n saw he refered to me as there was no one.....i said,"Yeah?"He wasnt exactly tat shuai...aniwae..i had class....n i find him rude the way he call for me instead of "excuse me"!!!! I know it is their culture but i can helped it getting annoyed.
He ask me,"Where is AS5?"
Since he is more near the main road....I direct him to walk along the carpark till the end...B4 i could finish, he said his thanks n went off....
I was about to say more but since he stopped me it is up to him...it is very ez to get the illusion tat it is end of the road after that posh AS7 but there are more buildings after tat....since he cut me off...i shrugged off the responsibility of telling him more...who cares!!!!
Rushing along the corridor,i saw this poor guy with bandage in wheelchair...then i glanced at him and guess who i saw? My sec 4 maths teacher cum maths HOD, Mr Ng Chew Kee...if i am not mistaken...he recognised me...and we chat a little..he asked what am i doing here, teaching....
i said no, i was studying here....3rd yr....he ask for my major, I had to expand for umpteen times my dept name...then he laughed and say not the same as his nephew aka the poor chap in wheelchair who is in social work....then he ask if i am rushing for lecture...i said yes since i was pressed for time...
Lucily i am still early...decide to wait for my frenz outside the classroom....then i saw the angmoh guy again rushing......i quickly went into the classroom, fearing him accusing me of not pointing enuff direction for him...whew...
The 1st tutorial went smoothly...form a group for debate n research gp...hehehe
The second tutorial is so dry n .....sob sob...i am the onli one w/o pals there......everyone is 2 by 2 or by 3.....me all alone....so pathetic.....
I told ma about it n she say...in exact words,"U are like tat since young...u must learn independence. No 1 going to help u but urself."
As i think about it thru out the rest of the journey, i find it is the truth, creal reality n scary.....then more i tnk of it the more i want to cry......I tnk in the pessimistic way.....i tnk of wat if my parents are gone....no 1 will say the same words n encourage me anymore....I have tot of this b4 but i went into escapism.....but the thing came back to haunt me repeatedly.......wat will happen to me by then if i am left behind all alone w/o frenz? Wat will i do? I am nearly in tears when i tnk of it and it gives me a splitting headache.....it is so SCARY.....
I feel like i am back to the little gal who is trapped in this ageing body....
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