Art of talking

 For the past few years after school, it has been a road of discovery about myself.
I loved the road of discovery but it is quite scary, honestly.

As I mentioned earlier, making / giving a speech wasn't my forte.
I prefer writing over talking. May be that is why I took an instant liking for Internet where everyone is
faceless.

I have a lot of things to say, some may be offensive to others.

BUT I never dare to say.

Why?
I am scared I might offend people and fell into the vicious cycle of being attacked by others.
If being silent can stay out of harm's way, why not?
I can be brutally direct at times.
This becomes my weapon without my knowledge until someone told me about it after she cannot stand it.

Then I realise I have the problem of packaging my ideas.

In other words, my delivery is bad.

I have been finding ways to deal with it but they worked with varying success depending on the context.

This is not good as I do not know what are my success factors. Now it seems like a pure stroke of luck make those occasions a success.

Then I came across an interesting notion.

Store what you want to bring up and things you want to say. When someone mentions similar things, repackage / reframe those ideas that you have in mind and say it out.
Works the best.

Now I have given it some thought and find that it is not a bad idea.
But it has several pre-requisites:

            a) You must have a GOOD MEMORY. Otherwise the ideas might just slip away like I always do. 
                 Or the database in the mind has no search engine. Lost links.

            b) You must have QUICK REFLEX. Why? so that the moment things are mentioned and balls are 
                 rolling, you can quickly reframe and shoot.
   
             c) You must have LARGE ANTENNA. If you have one, congratulations. You can have the widest
                  reach and bring ideas up.

May be I can try to cultivate those pre-requisites and I will not get bulldozed into doing work that I cant refused.