Then we went to Ci Yuan Veggie Cafe as huimin's a vegetarian..we order our food and it happen so that the shop have tv and tune to channel U...hehehehe...Nezha....
then as we eat, we tok abit and our topic went around Angela. Originally, huimin ask Her to come along but she din reply b'coz i tnk she saw my name. Huimin ask me wat happen? I told her the whole story and she comment that angela is a sensitive person and she might still nurse her hate for Iso. I din not tnk of it at that time too. The invisible wound in my heart open up again. For many times, I have lost my frenz b'coz of this. all I want to ask is that am I really that insensitive??? IS it a sin if I din tnk of my frenz' feelings???As a punishment, I lost my frenz???even sum1 who have so long frenzship wif??? Am I that type who really can be a casual frenz to all but no close frenz to me???
I realli duno....seriously i tried to change but I could not alwaz maintain it coz..sometimes I maybe bogged dwn by work or very tired physically.I am not as multitasking as I seem to be.....
I have alwaz try to find out the answer but I cldnt. Either pple are too polite to tell me coz hurt my feelings or dun bother to tell me at alll....I admit I often neglect these so I nid pple to tell me right in the face....
My sisters ask me y I did so many tests and quizzes....at first i cldnt reply them...now i can....Subcconsciously, i try to find out wat kind of person m I???even though, professionals deemed that my brain usage can result in havinf different results if i take the same test repeatedly......that's how damn lucky i am....I can choose to manipulate my answer or have a answer that fits to my ideal...and start to deceive myslef that I wasnt that bad a person afterall....I duno.....seriously I am very tired...very tired...Wish I have a pair of wings to fly away.....even though it is very coward of me to do so.....
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