Moods

I am writing this in my moments of anger or so he called it.
I feel very frustrated these days, what to do?

To have your mum tell you that hey I never forced you to find a job fast, so just obey my house rules.

Then, your dad comes along and say well,why did u eat these junk food in your room?

Imagine to have ur dad accused u that u ate it when there is only one of the tiny weeny cookie left in there.
Then when u say u din, he say u are raising ur voice at him.

Hell, I had my headpiece stuck and the thing doesnt belong to me.So wat does the hell got to do with me?

Geez...last time I din have problems with that becoz they did not say anything.
Now seems that I become their sandbag.
I have my own temper and tolerance level.
I tried to avoid them...i already stuck myself in the room. What else you want me to do?

I tried to do everything in my room except u know the amenities and food.
When I am in my room all the time, they start saying why arent u moving around, why arent u going somewhere?

Wat else they want me to do?

Godamit!

I am going to have a breakdown pretty soon. This anxiety thing...

I feel so pathetic and inferior..

I am just a sand stuck in their eyes..
Trying to get rid off but it just stuck it right there.

Wat to do?

haha.....I also duno...

recently, my chest area is very very tight and constricted.

But wat can i do?

Worry? Cry?

Not that they dun treat me well but just that being together daily just rub the wrong way.

Din I know to get a life?

But I just cant find the job I wanted.

What the hell does it got to do with me?

What have I done wrong but just have bouts of bad luck.

I keep on bumping on the wrong door..

so?

so?

I am so tired and yet I cant say that right in front of my friends, my family

Coz they are working and they are definitely more tired than I am.

I am not saying I am physically tired but mentally and emotionally, I am drained.

I am those who will be motivated once my emotional health is revitalised or healthy.

I dun care wat small sickness like flu or watever stop me.

Gosh....why cant they understand that and leave me alone?