Hmm...i alwaz feel that eversince i took a yr off to start things afresh...i lost touch with a lot of things...like human relationship and how to interact with pple...i seemed to be able to build a shield around myself...wic i guess is thru instinct...i no longer can speak to others as comfortable as i seemed b4...it is especially prominent when i interact with guys....it seems to be a painful chore for me..... i duno how to talk with ease to others...i feel so inadept...so clumsy.....
like last nite...i receive a call from Eugene...we chat and talk...he finish his exam yday.....and it is also the last day in the hall...i duno if it is the hp problem or my problem...i feel that my ill- at ease start to rise again...i tnk i say something that i shdnt have....i apologize.....:(
my mum start to egg me to go out and socialise....but i am a sort of loner...unless force by sum circumstances to socialise i rather stay at hm to read books or have tea and chat wif close friends...i duno wat my mum is scared about...but i have no wish to expand my circle as yet....i duno y...though i feel the need to do so.....
hahaha...forget it...today...Val, Clarina and Min go bugis to pray pray....they ask me if i wish to go...i duno as yet.....me went recently so i duno wat i can do there except to get a peace of mind and get in touch wif friends.....maybe can go and pray for luck in jobs ...kekeke....
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