The World Book Fair

Whoa!!! Finally the EVENT of the year has commenced.

No lah!!!! only for me!!! CAnt wait to get going, Man!!!

Duno wat kind of stuff I can find. Must check out a bit!!! hehehehe....

Will tell you more when I get back then!!

Cya!

:P

In reply to a helpless mother (Article found in Lianhe Zaobao, 26/5/2005)

This morning, my mother draw my attention to this article in the reader's forum.She said a girl has a similiar plight as me.

Here is the brief summary of content of the article.

A girl who has taken her "A" level got her Chinese "A" a "D".
(Big matter to us!!!)
She expected a better grade and so do here teachers and friends. (same here!!!) She is a good student too.
(yeah so am I).
Nonetheless, she still applied to various local Uni in hope of getting in.
(me too!!)

But in the end, she was rejected by the local Uni even though the admission requirements are relaxed.
(me too!!!! very sad and disheartening to us, I am sure!)

Her mother even beg the the MP for it.
(Nah, this is the point of divergence. My mum din even bother. She thinks no point and it is me who coz my downfall.)

Now her daughter dare not go out and face the world.
(Well, I did went thru this phase. I hung my head low when I go out and keep myself shut in my house most of the time. I feel inferior to others especially my peers. I am still so, seriously and honestly.)

Her mother is at lost on how to deal with her daughter.

After breezing thru the article again, I feel...WOW!!! I had a similiar experience but I wasnt to that extent of depression.

Here is wat my advice is, if YOU, YES, YOU, gal who make ur mum worry or anyone who is close to her seen this, tell here the following.

There is absolutely NO point, NO POINT in mopping ur head over something that is already in the past.

Get ON with ur life. Ur life wun stop here. You still have a long way to go. Why stop urself over an obstacle which may seemed large to you at this moment?

Start to think and plan ahead. An Obstacle may force you to chage current plans but IT will NEVER obstruct ur big plans.

Here is what I did, hopefully, it will be of reference to you.

I cried to myself to sleep and think and pountd on the reason why I got it all wrong. Yeah all wrong, coz I got all "D"s including my best subject, chinese.This period is very important. You frustrate all ur bad feelings then kick it aside like a cleanser. Wipe it off.

I think of the jobs that I can do this moment and I find myself not prepare to face the world as yet. Whic means studies is still important to me!

Fine, the I ask myself. Do I want to go SIM or Local Uni since I got a full cert? Moreover, my JC dun 1 me anyway and I never 1 that kind of school life anyway.

I think the answer will be local uni since I pick a fall there and WAT else!! Those who reject me Shall admit me in GRACE!!!! No nid for red carpet but the "气势" must be there.

With this aim in mind, I know, it will be the private candidate route and it is not ez for me coz I have one Science subject which requires lab work.

I got several friends in the same situation as me who enrolled themselves into private schools which have labs to do lab work. Yeah, I go and check out who din make it and comfort myself that I am not the only one and that Failure is nothing, it can happen to anyone, even the clever ones.

Then I realise regimented life not for me coz me still afraid to face others and think I would see their despising faces. So I stay at home and study. I check out all the neccessary including the private candidate registration date, the syllabus to see if there is any change and check out who is still in my old JC to render some help in case I need it. I no longer see it just as my studies but a war which I wage against the local institution and exam system. IF this is the hurdle I have to crossover, so be it. I need to strategise it and make it work and win for me! I WANT TO WIN IT IN GRACE! I set myself a timetable and follow it so that it means I am like in school studying but in home environment. It is a bit of bad method coz my slight depression and fear of people did not get cure. It worsened.

My mum supported me throughout the process even though she blame me for my downfall. My dad is the one who truly oppsed say me waste my time and wun make it anyway. My mum fight for me and I feel touched. very very touched. I wasnt on good terms with mum then, I was defiant. But the setback make me realise and open my eyes to a lot of things that I have taken for granted including my mum. However, I sat at the dinning table every meal with my head hung low after that. I din earn any $$$ and I cant do the basic for them that is excel in my studies. I live my life for that year in disgrace.
Yeah but dun think my parents are that bad lah. Just a front. Who dun like their kids. But one thing is that, they din foot my exam fees again. I had to folk out nearly 500 backs to do all five subjects again. You hear me right, I DID ALL FIVE SUBJECTS AGAIN!!

I do all the ten years series again, going through the notes I have and read through them with more details. As for Chinese, I tried to find all the possible areas that I might have did wrong like my lit not good. I memorise that again and again, constantly. Who says no need to memorise? IT IS BULLSHIT!! You still nid the main points to write. AS for The other part my chinese lang, I am good at it so I din do much juz read through the vocab and newspapers.
Guess wat?!! I wrote my 1st piece of chinese compo only during the exam for the year and able to do so sia. Heng!!!

For the science subject, I give up the lab work, juz memorise the stuff needed for lab and that's it. I reinforced in other areas fpr that subject. Wat for waste time on things that wun yield you any good marks.
For GP< my weakest also, I send my essay from my friend, 3rd sis, for her GP teacher to mark. I endure his teasing also. I bear it wif good grace and even send him a bar of good chocolate with a cheeky note.
All thanks to my dear sis, my best 3rd Sis!!! even though we have sum misunderstanding bcoz of it but we clear it!!!!
my GP ah, agin, I realise I am good at compre and bad at compo.

Then I made a visit to my old JC to see my CCA teacher who kindly helped me with my work. But when the pricipal who walk pass saw me in home clothes. She scold my teacher and even scorn me for not doing well, first time round.

C'mon, who will alwaz do well so smoothly all the time. It is not that I duno my work but you staff's way of explaination is horrible. They have diff treatments for good and bad students. I find that I can study better without their help and dun need to see their bad faces to demoralise me! IF not for my good good teacher, I would not go back!

Then for my lab exam. IT is scheduled at my old JC and the HOD of Sci at that time look at us in contempt. Coz she recog some of us were former students. I duno if that is my misconception or wat lah, I find that annoying and disgraceful!

Then I sat my exam with best wishes from mum. Very importnat to me. Without her support, I wun make it so far. I discuss my work with her even though she din have much education. I tell her my worries, my fear, my obstacles and she analysed for me in chinese lah.. She have read the papers so know more than me. She is a good mum. she even brought me lunch while I need to sat for my next paper on same day as the one b4. She has to travel so far.

I hung my head low for the whole year. Cut down my trips outside. No KTVs, NO shopping trips, No fun. I need to get my own $$$ to get books and pay my fees so I give tuition. To a private candidate for "O" level. I tried to help her. Heopefully, I help her lah.

When exam results are about to release, I couldnt sleep. I couldnt eat. I couldnt even read my fave books. My mind keep repeating the errors that I have make during the exam. When I accessed the results thru net, I was overjoyed. My Chinese got a golden "A". The rest all improved greatly except for my Sci subject. Stagnant at "D" lah. Expected. no labwork means no "A". I cried over my results laughing and screaming at the same time. I knew I did it and won the battle against the instituions and system. "以其人之道,还其人之身".That day, I have to give tuition. For the first time in that year, I held my head high and take a deep breath as I step outside. I wasnt that bad afterall. I am not useless.

Joyfully, I applied to all Uni including SIM and SMU. That means I have to slog for the SAT at that time. I went for it anyway. I did it quite ok. Then SMU called me for interview and I actually passed that gritty meany interview. It is very very tough, I assured you. Unless you have full confidence of urself, they will squirm on you!!! After going thru so much, I dun think that is a problem. I have proved to myself. my former chinese lit teacher who a bit belittle me was surprised that I did it too. i am now in one of the top schools, graduating soon.

All I want to say is this. Think for yourself gal. What do you want to do in the future? If you want to continue studies, by all means do it. Think of the different alteratives and plan. Planning is important. and so is determination. Family support is important but you have such a caring mum so should not be a problem.

Set aside all ur unhappiness and fear. They will obstruct you. Have no fear and concentrate in ur goal and you will succeed.

Anything, u can reach me by this website. Will be glad to talk to you.

For the rest of my friends and sisters, Sorry to make you read such a long piece. I juz had to say my piece here. I feel the same feeling arise again when I read the article. hehehee....This is my true feeling even though you all kind folks never belittle me but that kind of feelings still there. I am wary of you for that time. I feel so inferior so disgraceful and still feels so today. That's the impact that the whole stuff still have on me. I am still treading on thin ice even today. I care for my studies more than any of the outings. Sorry to fly u the planes so many times. Thanks for supporting me!!!!

So grateful!

I dun blame any1 or anything for my fall. I may hate the edu system at that time but now, I think it is a phase I need to get thru and the edu system are more humane and closer to my ideal one.Wish I can go back and do it again to do my exam in this kind of environment where I can get to choose. I think it is a good time to cure my cockiness.

Guys, dun try it ah...U nid to think of ur NS and no time to repeat ah... I have seen guys who slogged so hard in the day and struggle to revise in the night.

Thats all, Good Day to all then!!!!

:P

me....new test!

Your #1 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #3 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #4 Match: INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

Your #5 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

What's Your Personality Type?

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Life Path Number Is 1

1 Your Life Path is is characterized by individualist desires, independence, and the need for personal attainment. The purpose to be fulfilled on this Life Path is that of becoming independent. This is a two part learning process; first, you must learn to stand on your own two feet and learn not to depend on others. After you are indeed free and independent, you must learn to be a leader. Many of our generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path number 1. You always have the potential for greatness as a leader, and you may fail as a follower. Many 1's spend most of their lives shaking off their dependent side. When this happens, there is little time left for enjoying the rewards to be gained through independence. You may have to overcome an environment in which it is very easy to be dependent - and difficult to be independent. You have an abundance or creative inspiration - and possess the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. Your drive and potential for action comes directly from the enormous depth of strength you have/ This includes both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You are ambitious, and either understand or must learn the need for aggressive action to promote yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you are highly self-centered and demand to have your way in most circumstances. If you are not fully developed, you may express the negative side of your number. That means your demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent. If this is the case, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances and long for self-sufficiency. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Over-confidence and impatience are the weak side of your Life Path.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

One night in Beijing

Last nite, when my mum and I watched the JTeam's " Happy Hour", one of the team sing the "One night in Beijing". Erm, I must say, it is not uniform and not sharp enough lah, but good try since so many people singing at the same time. Then My mum quiped in that makes me nearly want to drop to the floor from the bed lah.

Mum:"Yucks. Not very nice leh. Hua, tomorrow, you sing for me hor. I realise you sound much better than them."(translated from Chinese lah)

So does she mean that I do sound bad initially? And that after comparison, I really do sound better especially for the female wayang part?Wah...... :P

Then I remember last year I went to KTV with Eugene, Isa and Kexin. I did that song once. Then Eugene did the male part lah....hehehehe.......I think i got three black lines down my face hor? '''. .'''

But, heng, she never ask me to do it, this morning....Heng ah....!!! :P

David Tao: the Great Leap 2005

hahaha....My fave CD of the moment...Big Thanks to XinXin...Thanks for buying this CD at a really cheap price.....Luv Ya.....

This CD is produced after the Trilogy ones on Dave's life and a collection of all the Trilogy as summation of his life.

Yup this is the cover of both the China and the local version

Moving on, He produced this CD to relfect on his current life and his views on certain things. Initially, I din think that it is really that nice but subsequently with the lyrics, I can feel the power behind it. Man! A world of Difference with and without the lyrics.

I recommend the following songs if you have the time, not in order of preferences. Do try to listen!!!

1.Ghost

Very realistic song. I like the rythmn and the lyrics. And oh yes, the MV as well.

2.The Art of War

Duno why...I seem to fave songs on war leh. Like Jay Chou's "zi Zhan ZHi Shang". I also find this song very very pleasing to my ears and echo my sentiments.
3. Who do you love?

This is one of the hits that the local radio stations recommend but I dun think that Dave is only at his best when his do sentimental songs lah. Honestly, if you hear his other fast-paced song, you will like it lah. But I have to say, he does have his own way of expressing the sentimental songs as such it touches your heart. :P

4. Sula & Lampa

This is another one of the interesting songs, man! got to listen to it. It is fun.

Yup. Another thing is that the original copy is a copy control CD lah. So there is no way u can make another "friendly" version!!! Anyway, C'mon, this CD is worth buying lor. Trust me!

Oh, one last thing is that there is a China version and a local version of the CD. The China version is cheaper but it does not have the song, "Ghost". You know why lah, Becoz The Chinese Government ban the song. Due to the MV. Too Grisly is stated as the reason and corrupt minds of kids. Abit play on the mentality of people lah...I do get a scare initially. Hehe :P

more on me!!

You Are 60% Normal (Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

How Normal Are You?

Missing all my friends!!!

Haiz...I admit sia....it is very hard to stay at home and miss all my friends and fun out there. But it is even harder when you dont even have $$ to make it happen....Wish i can find a job soon...otherwise.....dunno how I will survive sia.....

The Finale of The Amazing Race 7

Whoa! I secretly enlist my bro's PC to record down this joyous moment as Uchenna and Joyce won the Amazing Race 7, throwing Rob and Amber to the backwater.!!!!! hahahahaha...that is the fun part realli!! U can see the couple in better light after they help Meredith and Gretchen with the boats, showing more compassion than other teams do. Ron and Kelly with their bitching and breaking down of relationship worsen and their hopes for winning the race. While the sneaky and scheming Rob and Amber could clearly show their tiredness after a long race.

The best part is when Ron and Kelly use the schemes on Rob and Amber who have used b4 and now it is their retribution. hahahaha.....!!!!!

I like the part where Uchenna and Joyce have to beg for $$$ and Uchenna being a man has the ability to calm his wife down and continue with the race. His determination is unbelieveably good!!!!I admire him for that!!! His honour at insisting that the taxi-driver, shows his integrity!!! Nice man!!! Must be a good father too!!
That is the end of TAR7!!!! I wish I can see more of TAR8 soon!!!

Laptop Repair

Hi pple, this will be the last update before i send this laptop of mine to the service centre. Basically, everything works well but the point is that once i remove the plug n not connected to DC, I cannot operate this laptop. Bascially defeats the purpose of havng a laptop. Therefore, i need to send in for maintanence before my warranty card expires.hehehehehe...so for quite sometime u all may not see me online....dun panic n dun forget me ok?????

Death

Recently, there are quite a few well-loved ones are dead. One of them is that late ex-President of Singapore Professor Wee Kim Wee. I still remembered him as a kind old man, well-loved my Singapore citizens. It is very sad to see a great man die even though it is the cycle of nature. Duno if it is Mr Wee's fortune or Mrs Wee's misfortune, it is very very sad to see ur soulmate be gone before you do. I can feel the pain that Mrs Wee suffered. I am a bit shocked that MM Lee also shed tears during the service. I know it is natural to cry but I will never expect a strong man to cry too. No wonder we have a chinese saying that strong man do not shed tears until he is thoroughly depressed.

Next is this piece of news. We have all hear of the famous Ad dog, Lucky. It is so cute and adorable but alas, he died as well. Here is the excerpt from "The Sun":

THE dog who starred as Lucky in TV insurance ads has died aged 12.

The family pet, real name Benson, had battled cancer for months.

Lucky appeared in 20 ads for More Than insurance over four years.

A company spokesman said: “He will be truly missed.”

Finally Exam is OVer!!!

OK guys the Period of EMERGENCY is over!!!!!!YEAH!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! SO happy....SO Happy..... Hoping when I received the result I will be very happy too.....

This is a very sucky semester for me!!!! I tot I like the classes this semester so should not be a big problem...unfortunately the old saying is correct!!!! What you predict is not as true as heaven"s prediction!!!!

I like my Shaw Brother's project so much that I tot of using it as my presentation paper wor......but of course need to consult my partners sia....hehehehe....!!!! Great satisfaction for completing that paper!!!!!

Well, Semester break has come......so guys who having been worrying for me...Thanks a lot!!!! Special thanks to my big brother, Alvin......Thanks for ur support and Kexin!!!!!!Who never failed to send me sms wven when I am so busy that I cant reply her....oops.....flaw here.....should be I forget to reply her....hehehehhee...

Cya people....hope to mit up with u soon.....