Friday, June 23, 2006

人与人之间

这些日子, 我觉得很不开心。
有些人会问我:
你在家,吃好睡好,怎么会不开心?

因为我终于感觉到朋友所经历过的压力。
大概是人与人之间的相处时间太久,久到没有私人空间,所以彼此感觉快要窒息了,才不停的伤害对方。
言语上的无心才是最致命的武器。
以前我们没有察觉这点因为我们都很忙碌,没有太多的相处时间。求学的求学,工作的工作, 各司其职。难得聚在一起,所以才感到温馨。
朋友说你这人很糟糕,你回笑着不去在意。因为你有家人做后盾。
但是当家人都这么说你,再坚强的铁衣都会瓦解。

你这个人怎么这么糟糕?全身上下都是缺点,连一点优点都没有。
讲你,你又不听。你到底想怎样?叫你改,你又不肯。

连过去最支持你的人都这么说你,试想想,身为当事人的你又会做何反映?
尝试一笑置之?一语带过?
其实心早已百孔千穿。无人之际,还会泪流满颊,质问自己是否有这么糟糕?难道自己什么优点都没有吗?
你鼓起勇气问他,他毫不迟疑的回答
是!

你又如何?
继续堕落下去,自卑感越来越重,将自己吞毙。直到死的那一天还是把自己给瞧小了。
还是缩进保护壳里,自舔伤口?
反抗?
怎么可能去扭转别人的印象?
感觉上就的伤口刚结痂,却又添新伤。怎么可能好的了?
有些事情是不能勉强,不喜欢就是不喜欢,难道就病急乱投医,庸庸碌碌过一生?谁先开口要我,我就跟谁?
我做不到。
感觉好累。外表可能若无其事,谁有能体谅我内心的伤口?
哈!
好累!真的!我快喘不过气了,想出国,却没钱。
更惨的是,是我欠他,还得继续依赖他,叫我情何以堪?
能怎么样?
没办法了,死路一条。

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Bao!!

Yeah..as you know, I am known to cook or rather specialised in small chinese Dim Sum.
Today, mum has to the urge to eat Bao so we decide to make lor...
We tried a different recipe and it works though we have to wait a little bit longer.
So with the new A540 in hand, let me show u some of the finished work.
Oh, we used wheat flour so it appears darker so hehe....though look not nice but taste very good..hehe....





The ingredients and the finished product.




An enlarged version of the Bao I made. Sorry ah..I haven perfect the art of making folds yet..hehe

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

World cup and TV

Everyone seems to be talking about World Cup so let me frame this very very HOT topic in another dimension and share with you what I have seen so far.
The main thing I see is the power of TV though everyone of you will say...INTERNET should be the one you should say is sensational because of technologies and website like YOUTUBE.

Like everyone say, YOUTUBE is sensational as it allows you to upload and share with others the sensational moments in the matches and benefit those like me who only have free-to-air channels and love to continue fighting against the invasion of Starhub into our houses. I do not deny that perception either. In fact I totally agree..

Then you ask me what is my case for TV?

Well, I would like to ask you to view from a social perspective.
In contrast with INTERNET, TV seems more like the old FRENCH cinemas in view of the World CUP.

People who know about my course will say...EXCUSE ME????!!!

Traditionally TV is view like a silo for each family unlike the mass entertainment like cinemas where people gather to watch shows.

But as you see in World Cup, people prefer to gather in groups be it in pubs, mass fields, central areas and so on, view the matches from a projecter screen or large TV.

When reporters asked me why they gather, audience say they want to feel the atmosphere and see if there is any allies in supoorting a certain team.

TV here is no longer a silo but more for social bonding in this case.

Furthermore, who say that in the INTERNET AGE, people becomes more withdrawn and prefer their own computer platforms?

Well, World Cup proves you wrong and this applies to certain people.

Most people will gather for special occassions.

Community is still there.

We can still see that in South Korea, thousands if not hundred thousands are at the central square. I am amazed by the image. S. Korea is another quite advanced country in terms of internet penetration and computer per household figure yet they show this phenonmena. We can say that humans have different choice of medium for different purpose to achieve their gratifications. Not neccessary always the same choice.

Another issue is that someone once mentioned that INTERNET will take over TV as the medium of choice for the mass.
I will say....hey....please wake up...please wake up...
I think they may merge but they will not mutally replaced each other.
Too overarching statements isn't it. Especially with World Cup.

Yeah..this is my different viewpoint. Hope you don't mind my nagging...

:)

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Camera

YEY!!!
Finally got my own camera. Whew! I think mine is quite cool coz got some manual things to play on and I can accomodate my family.hehe...
Mine is Canon Powershot A540.
I quite like the size though it may seem bulky by today's minaturised standards.
Nonetheless, after days of haranguing with the salesmen, totally chauvinistic pigs species they have there at SL Square, you will be surprised by the going to be extinct species...
I finally bought this one within my limit. and it is cheaper by $50 as compared to market rate after I throw in the accessories.
Cool Huh!!
I haven been so happy with a toy as now. Not that happy these few days i think.
And I realise that I haven been blogging so......to pacify my readers...i hope there are a few....here are some astro pictures that I like..oops...courtesy of NASA website....Enjoy..
Ciao...


APOD turn 11th


Nice sunset


Sun's halo


Enceladus Ice Volcanos

Friday, June 16, 2006

ANALOG cameras?

These days is full of shopping sprees so no wonder my piggy has gone thinner...sob sob...
Anyway, that's not the point.
The point as you know is the title above.
While shopping with my mum sumewhere near Bishan, I chance upon this big electronic store.
I was browsing through the digital cameras sections to show my mum the cameras that I would like to have.
Yeah..then as we go around searching for it, the cameras were divided into digital and analog.
I was like.........HUH??
I retraced my steps and take a look at the word analog more closely.
DUH??!!
Then I look at the cameras under it.
IT is just TRADITIONAL cameras with the film and then u do point and shoot.
I was thinking.........arent they traditionally called cameras?
Furthermore, the word analog as the dictionary refresh my memory, is transmitting some signals across the frequency and stuff like TV and radios, some handphones..when has it become cameras?
IF.....
analog cameras and the cameras as we known in general are the same, then why bother to put analog in front?
WEIRD??!!

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Weird Burial Place

haha.....This is one of the cutest and most bizzare case of burial.
The thing that pop into my mind is

WHAT WILL THE ENVIRONMENTALISTS SAY?

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A Boom Beyond Burials (Forbes.com)

In life, radio disc jockey Roby Yonge was pretty weird. Best known for propagating on-air the "Paul is dead" rumor about Beatles member Paul McCartney in 1969, he believed in life on other planets and was obsessed with discovering the mythical lost city of Atlantis. Now, nine years after his death, Yonge's family has found the storied city for him -- in name, at least -- and plans to make it his final resting place. Under construction three miles off the coast of Key Biscayne, Florida, Atlantis Memorial Reef is an underwater graveyard and scuba attraction that will open in July, and eventually hold the remains of up to 80,000 people whose families are willing to pay between $900 (sharing space with others in a base) and $250,000 (for a custom 18-foot sculpture in bronze, limestone or concrete). You can get a 20-square-foot family mausoleum, with four columns and two lintels, for only $50,000.

This Disneyland for the dead is the curious fixation of Gary Levine, 58, who used to build docks and seawalls but is a bit new to the burial business. Once it's complete, the site will span 15 acres of ocean floor and consist of five concentric circles, based loosely on an account of Atlantis in Plato's dialogue Timaeus. Levine has planned 40 themed areas, including love, education, the military and the zodiac, all overseen by a bronze display of winged lions and three dolphins pulling a chariot of the Greek sea god, Poseidon. Tacky? Even Levine has limits. "We're not making a bust of someone's wife or their German shepherd," he insists. "If someone wanted diamond eyeballs we wouldn't do that, either."

Who would back such a kooky venture? Levine, who owns 47 percent of his AfterLife Services, isn't naming names but says a dozen investors coughed up $350,000 toward the $10 million construction cost. A colleague arranged a $200,000 bank loan, and Levine scraped together another $250,000 between his own savings and those of friends. The startup capital was enough for him to get through the arduous permit process and launch a small marketing effort. (See Forbes' slideshow Six Options For An Alternative Burial)
Like many a caprice, this one came about during a sunset stroll on the beach. Levine told a friend, "When I'm gone I want to be in the water with the fish." That got him researching reef burial sites. You can find at least one outfit working offshore, with sites from New Jersey to Texas (California and Oregon have no provisions for man-made reefs), that mixes cremated remains with cement for burial among artificial reefs made of junked parts of steel bridges, sunken barges and leftover construction debris. Levine wanted more, so he recruited an old sculptor friend, Kim Brandell, who designed the steel globe outside Trump International Hotel in Manhattan's Columbus Circle. The two sketched out something similar to the set of James Cameron's The Abyss, the 1989 underwater sci-fi thriller.
But where to locate? Levine needed a wide, level and coral-less stretch of ocean floor deep enough for tall sculptures but sufficiently shallow to allow sunlight, plants and recreational divers. The site also had to meet a Coast Guard requirement of 25 feet of clearance from the tops of structures to the water surface. An ideal spot in Miami-Dade County turned up. Levine found an eager advocate in Brian Flynn, a manager in charge of reef projects for the county, who was impressed by the detailed renderings, cost breakdowns and time lines. Atlantis got an OK in January 2005. Levine plunked down $84,000 to engage a marine engineering firm.
Not so fast. Within a month or so the U.S. Army Corps of Engineers began questioning the unusual proposal. A 30-day public notice period was set, and everyone piled on -- the Environmental Protection Agency, U.S. Fish & Wildlife Service, Florida Fish & Wildlife Conservation Commission, Department of Environmental Protection. "The bureaucracy was just running wild and the questions just kept coming," says Levine. "There were times when discussions got a little heated," recalls Audra Livergood, a fishery biologist with the National Oceanic & Atmospheric Administration. "I couldn't believe there could be a project like that; I'm still skeptical about its habitat value." Would Atlantis interfere with any natural fish habitat? The point was debated for months until Levine offered ocular proof there'd be no problem -- four hours of underwater video, coordinates logged along the way via GPS. "What did we see that whole time? Not one single fish," Levine says.
But without the requisite permits Levine couldn't raise any more money or solicit customers. That didn't stop him completely. He sank $180,000 into steel, fiberglass and rubber for casting the concrete structures, until the funds started drying up last November. When the permits still hadn't been approved by December, even that work groaned to a halt. "These were painful months, and 'painful' is a gentle way to describe it," says Levine, who had to lay off a receptionist, a graphic designer and an event organizer. Meantime, he continued to print brochures and business cards and to spam politicians for support. A part-time chief financial officer and a web designer worked without pay, and Levine, a divorced father of four, says he gave his kids an IOU for Christmas. He himself lived on borrowed money the first two years of the startup and took a $26,000 salary only last year.
The waiting game finally ended in January, when the Army Corps issued the permit to the county. Levine raised another $300,000 from investors. He is meeting with funeral homes, beginning with those in Florida, offering a 20 percent commission.
Levine insists he can make this nutty project work. AfterLife, he says, will break even after 14 months or less of operation, on revenue of $3.3 million. There's at least one thing in his favor. More Americans are choosing cremation -- 30 percent of the 2.4 million people who died in 2004. (See Forbes' slideshow Six Options For An Alternative Burial)

Sunday, June 04, 2006

All girls gathering

HAh! Finally get to watch the movie that I have anticipated for a very long time since last year when I watched the trailers.
AS u might have guess.............

DA VINCI CODE

Well, I read the book about 2-3 years ago so can roughly remember the gist but not the details.
I would say first of all it is a good start to read the book before embarking on the movie.
The movie is a very very condensed version of the book.
I have a few things to say about the movie so do bear with me if you do not agree with me.
If you like, u can skip the part.
Afterall, I am entitled to my own opinions.

1. I dun quite like the actor Tom Hanks. I find him too, u know, mature.
I tot that Robert Langdon suppose to be some sauve guy. Well, that's one part I din quite like. You can say I admire youthfulnes and probably abit narcisstic.

2. The scenery and stuff is breath-taking. It is very cool and probably worht a tour of these places. Well, the travel companies already got the hint and smell opportunities over here.

3. The pace with Silas breathing down their neck is good but towards the end where the mystery is supposed to be unravelled and the supposedly climax of the show, well to me seems anti-climax. Duno why but I just feel that way so a bit disappointing.

Yup, that's all...hehe

Oh the trip to the book sale at Expo is great. Found a lot of books at cheap prices. So cool!!
But ah the bad thing is that it does not accept cash. So we have to go all the way to Hall 1 to withdraw money.
As usual, long queue then we quickly q up and luckily we got the money.
But when the queue reach Ling ah, the atm machine well is spolit.haha....
Poor pple behind us.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

CNM gathering

WEll, it is a gathering that I would never have expected to attend.
1st thing, it is organised by someone unexpected.
2nd thing, it is at a condo that I duno where the hell it is.
With that, I go ahead.
Well, 1st thing I meet Yee then subsequently, a lof of classmates gather at the YCK mrt. So cool as I have never spoken to them in class b4.
Amazing
then we waited for everyone that we are supposed to wait then we cross to the unknown place.
At least some1 has the common sense of printing the map.
WE trooped over...believe or not in TWOs.
Yup, like primary school mates...in TWOs.
So orderly.
If course the in the front is the girl with map.
haha...that's what we learn from education.
Then the gal gets lost and so does everyone
so once again every1 turn and guess wat..
me being in the last initially now become in front of the lineup.
SO ORDERLY!!!
Then we reach there...
Guess wat. the security guard want to register us with IC.
Being the students of CNM, we all know the danger of identity theft...haha...
Inside so few of them
then there is this guy who dress so old lah..
then Yee tot it was the classmate's father...I think the guy scrowled so did the gf..
The Beehoon is so salty...I bet the Soy sauce is free
but she did dish out a lot of food so cant grumble
Then we chat.
As usual, the hottest topic will be internship experience and the hot question: "Have u found a job?"
haha...we did take some photos.
here is one of them
overall, quite fun.