Sunday, December 25, 2005

Aversion to Festive seasons

I duno why, but I think this is one of the most hated festive seasons that I having for these few years. I feel so lonely even though my family members are all present.
I think it is the stress that my education is bringing me. That's why I hated my department of study. Why do they have to leave it till the last minute and not prepared their own students in advance? It is not just the student's problem, it is the entire department, entire faculty problem. Other departments have done it last semester. I dun see why we have to do it last minute even though we are a young department. The stress is killing me in fact. I hate this.
I realise I had to do a lot of things these feel days. I am freakingly stressed. I cant seem to find my happiness anymore. Not even my dearest books can make me smile or happy.
I wonder how am I supposed to cope with it when I get out to work?
I need some depression management.
I need to re-adjust again.
Desperately.
I hope I'll be happy when I am celebrating my CNY.
I need times off. Desperately.
Hope everything come out smooth.

Blogging ethics??

Recently after a spate of incidents that occured to me, I start to question a lot of things.
Yeah, your Question-Baby comes back to the world!!!
I was wondering about whether the First Amendment applies to blog so that we can have Freedom of Speech!
Obviously, it may not apply to Singapore unless the criticism or comment is constructive.
Then I wonder again if there is any law concerning copyright on blogs?
If anyone have any unique posting like your own poems, your own novels, own stories, own comments, together with the infinite repeatability of the Internet, it is quite a scary thing isnt it?
Imagine if someone actually cut and paste your work, and pass it as their own without giving you credit, how will you feel??
Ok, you may feel that I am over-exaggerating stuff, but things like that do occur isnt it?
Once again, people may feel that copyright discourages creativity and development.
Then people may have similar thoughts and stuff.
Think again!
Unless you have everyone in the cyberspace developing some ethics like giving credits to the person that you cut and paste the stuff from, it is hard not to impose copyright.
Furthermore, do you like it if someone stole your work and pass it as their own?
Even though you took minimal efforts to do, that is afterall your work, isnt it?
In addition, even though, you have similar stuff, you do not have the same way of expressing it. That really make a difference.
Why?
Because when one is paraphrasing it, they are adding their opinions and ideas into it. So that makes the idea somewhat different.
Ok..you may think that that is the best way of representing an idea.
Great! Fine!
At least credit it to the original author instead of not doing anything.
That's ethics!
In my opinion, it is quite hard to rule and make everyone abide by this ethics.
Unless everyone agree to take the trouble.
Hard lah!
According to the Laws of Human Nature, No.XXXXXXX, nobody would be willing to do so as they are lazy!
Yeah !
I admit I am lazy too. But hey, I do give credits to the source.
hehe.......in case you bombard me with mails.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

做人很累

做人真的很累!
你得面对人。
而人,你又惹来是是与非非这对兄弟。
人不管善良还是邪恶,一坐下来,只要身边有人,必定是讲他人闲话。
也不管会不会造成别人的嫌隙。
所以可以说是。。。。。。。
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人言可畏!

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又有朋友说朋友之间是互相利用的。
这点我没话可以说。
这辈子我注定要欠人家,我一定设法还。
我也不好意思欠别人,虽然我很欠扁。
友人又说: 有些人脸皮比较厚,利用别人不还不说,还不懂的偿还。
拿的理所当然,拿得心安理得。
这就是人。

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麻烦的人和事,为什么我老是碰上?
老是掉入陷阱却不知?
我是不是应该自我反省???
看来我做人失败!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Relief!!

Jus in case you think I am on a suicidal mode, I was waiting for my results so dun worry just that I am paranoid that's all. Hope you are not scared by me!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Waiting

Waiting Paige

Waiting is a torture
The future is unknown
But you feel as it a heavy weight is on your chest
You try to heave it out but it stays

Your stomach feels as it another big rock settled there
You cannot feel hunger or pain
You just feel the weight hanging there
Bending your back to lug it with you

You start to theorize anything and everything
Trying to rationalise it to predict your future
Eyelid batting Which one stands for good luck
Cut yourself Oh no, you see red
Fall down Oh my god what luck are you having
Bad dreams Are they going to coming true
Everything that you have done
Even though you know deep down that it will not help you
Everything is predestined

Then you start to do things you don't do in the past
Things that you consider stupid
But you end up in the cycle of doing it
In hope that it will help you to alleviate your fear
Fear for the unknown

Fear is terrible for your health you know it
But you cannot help it
You fear this You fear that
All because you have trip over the step before
And you hate yourself for making the same mistake
You fear to feel the same agony again
The next step is hard to cross

You pray hard
You try to inflict pain on yourself to keep the rock away
But that does not help
You start to panick Walking around in circles over and over again
Picturing the worst
The worst that your imagination allows you to travel
Nothing survives in the picture

Your panic escalate to fear and to stress and finally depression
You feel as it you are collapsing
You are useless afterall
You can't do anything well
You are just a failure and a loser
How come others can do it and not you
What are you thinking

I don't know how to explain this
But it just happen
Just happen and I'll break in cold sweat
Denying everything
Hoping it doesn't exist and go away quickly
But can it be done
I really don't know
I am about to breakdown
Honestly and seriously
I am not kidding
I am sick
Very Sick
How to cure this
I don't know
Don't think anyone can help
I am freaking out
End of the bottomles pit
God regardless of your race or origins, Help me

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Can you believe this???

Ok! I realli have get over the shock upon seeing this but friends, let me share with you this brand new gadget that left me in awe!

What is this??

Look realli carefully at this......

Are you doubting if you are guessing correctly?

Yeah you are right!


Ta-da! It is a HUMAN WASHING MACHINE!!!

Here are the details....

Japan: Japan Seeks Robotic Help in Caring for the AgedBy James Brooke, the New York TimesMarch 5, 2004

Toshiko Shibahara in the new human washing machine. "The temperature is just right ?the bubbles are really comfortable," she said.

MACHIDA, Japan- With an electronic whir, the machine released a dollop of "peach body shampoo," a kind of body wash. Then, as the cleansing bubbling action kicked in, Toshiko Shibahara, 89, settled back to enjoy the wash and soak cycle of her nursing home's new human washing machine.

"The temperature is just right ?the bubbles are really comfortable," she said, happily sealed up to her neck inside the Sanyo Electric Company's latest elder care product. Turning to an attendant hovering around the pink, clamshell-shaped "assisted-care bath," she asked, "May I have a bit more water, please?"

Futuristic images of elderly Japanese going through rinse and dry cycles in rows of washing machines may evoke chills. But they also point to where the world's most rapidly aging nation is heading.This spring Japanese companies plan to start marketing a "robot suit," a motorized, battery-operated pair of pants designed to help the aged and infirm move around on their own.

Then there is the Wakamaru, a mobile, three-foot-high speaking robot equipped with two camera eyes. It is used largely by working people to keep an eye on their elderly parents at home.These devices and others in the works will push Japanese sales of domestic robots to $14 billion in 2010 and $40 billion in 2025 from nearly $4 billion currently, according to the Japan Robot Association.

Leaders of the Philippines and Thailand, two countries that are negotiating free trade pacts with Japan, suggest a different route: granting work visas to tens of thousands of foreign nurses. But that is unlikely in a nation that last year granted asylum to only 10 refugees and in the last decade has issued about 50,000 work visas a year ?

a fraction of the 640,000 immigrants a year that demographers say are necessary to prevent Japan's population from shrinking.Building on such xenophobia, Japan's nurses' unions successfully lobbied lawmakers of the governing Liberal Democratic Party in late February to block the admission of foreign doctors and nurses.Caught between Japan's high labor costs and anti-immigrant sentiment, some mainstream politicians have even suggested exporting some of Japan's elderly to Thailand and the Philippines, but that has never won much popular support.

So even though the human washing machine retails for almost $50,000, enough to pay a year's wages for two Filipino nurses, robotic home care may lie in the future for Japan's aging millions. Fueling the demand is the decision by the government to push for home care for the elderly.Nursing homes are not seen as a financially viable option in a society where the portion of people aged 65 or over is forecast to soar to 36 percent in 2050, from 19 percent today. By that time there may be only one worker for every retiree.But Japanese women increasingly rebel against traditional expectations that they will stay home to care for aged relatives, creating an ever-larger pool of elderly people in need of care. "There are 600 would-be residents on the waiting list here," said Yukiko Sato, general manager of the Katsura-ryo nursing home here, which has only 80 residents.

A year ago Katsura-ryo became one of the first 100 pioneer companies in Japan to buy Sanyo's new washing machine for people."Residents say it is really good because they warm their whole body, they can take the bath on their own, they can protect their privacy," Ms. Sato said. "As for the staff, it means less burden on their backs. Also, they can save time, because the whole procedure can be done in a very short time."To operate the washer, the user sits in a chair that is rolled backward into place.

The sides of the machine then close like a clamshell, forming an instant tub with the person's head sticking out the top. Shampooing and drying is done by hand.At a Sanyo office in Tokyo, Hiroaki Otsubo, a general director for biomedical business development, noted that the washing machine had been developed by Mitsuru Haruyama, a businessman crippled by muscular dystrophy."Some people in the industry say Japanese people are not able to accept a robot as a nurse, that they attach importance to the humanity aspect," Mr. Otsubo said. "So we are stuck in the middle between efficiency and nursing with a human touch. But if you pay attention to the humanity side, you obviously need labor power."

But several elderly women living in Katsura-ryo said they rather enjoyed their robotic baths."It automatically washes my body, so I am quite happy about it," said Kuni Kikuchi, an 88-year-old in a wheelchair who is paralyzed on her left side after a stroke. "These bubbles are good for the massage effect."Eiko Suzuki, 73, generally agreed, saying: "I like both ways. But it is a machine and it hasn't got a heart. So once they set the program they can't change it midway."Ms. Shibahara, whom the nursing home chose to demonstrate the washing machine, said: "With this `hirb' you don't get a chill. You feel always warm."

On the front of each machine Sanyo stamps "HIRB," short for harmony in roll-lo bathing, because people are rolled in. But for older Americans it might evoke memories of another effort to humanize a machine ?the Disney movie about "Herbie," the Volkswagen "love bug" with feelings.


Amazing isnt it!!!

Yeah.....But I dun want to sit in it....feel so enclosed...
What do you think??

Friday, December 16, 2005

另类的英雄会

金庸笔下奇男子交流追女绝招

来源:网易 作者:小李飞刀

一天,金庸笔下的几名男子相聚一堂,以酒会友。酒过三巡,众人的话也多了起来,于是便聊到了追女孩子这热门的话题上来。首先发话的是萧峰,他喝了一大口酒,用手抹了抹嘴巴,清了清嗓子道:“这追女孩子啊,萧峰(天龙八部)自认为也没什么诀窍,最主要的是你要时时刻刻在她面前装英雄。你们想,哪个女孩子不希望自己的男人是英雄?有安全感?所以不用你半点口舌,她自己就会自动找上门来。”

  群雄一听都觉有道理,当年阿珠姐们就是看上他这点才爱得他死去活来的。可又有人说道:“萧大侠?你的话是有道理,可世上这么多的男人,不是每个都像你这样武功盖世,这英雄也不是每个人能做得了的啊?”众人一听都一起点头,萧峰只得坐下身来。

  这时,郭靖(射雕英雄传)站起身来,朝四周望了望,见黄蓉不在时才道:“我郭靖认为,追女孩子不一定要自己是英雄。当年我武功并不好,却把蓉儿追到手,你们知道是什么原因吗?”群雄一见是郭靖,心中都感纳纳闷,当年欧阳克那样一表人才的人都没把黄蓉追到手,他郭靖这傻小子都却成功了,莫非这其中真有些奥妙?四下顿时一片寂静,等待郭靖的下文。

  郭靖又道:“追女孩子最重要的是要学会装傻,你们想,蓉儿这女孩子多么聪明,可她又怎么容得下一个比她更聪明的男人呢?只可惜欧阳克那小子不懂味,怎天在她面前耍些小聪明。而我就不同了,越是在她面前装得什么都不懂,她越是觉得我这人可靠。所以啊,追女孩子最重要的是要装傻。”群雄一听,甚觉有理,只是心里在想:都说郭靖这人有点傻,今日一见,并不傻啊,看来以后可要留点神了。

  没等郭靖坐下来,杨过(神雕侠侣)又站了起来。对郭靖说:“郭伯伯,过儿可不这样认为。”群雄一年是杨过,心想他要是没半点本事,又怎么把小龙女追到?又听杨过说道:“过儿认为追女孩子最重要是要学会虚伪。”此话一出群雄一起张口结舌。

  杨过淡淡一笑,又道:“你们想想,我当年是怎样把姑姑追到手的?当年我若不装出一幅可怜巴巴的样子,姑姑怎么会把我留下来,后来我若不装出一副对她一往情深的样子,她又怎么会对我动情呢,你们又想想,我姑姑的清白被全真教那个狗日的道士夺走了,而我又怎么做呢?我也是男人,遇到这种事情你们会怎么做,怎么想?可我杨过无半点嫌弃她的样子,你以为我愿意啊,可我这也是没办法,小不忍者乱大谋啊?你们又想想看,我杨过在其她女孩子面前是哪个样子?”

  杨过说得振振有辞,似乎把一腔的不满都发泄出来。众人忽然想起杨过的事迹来,他杨过在其她女孩子面前总是满嘴油腔滑调的,一到了小龙女面前却老老实实的了。原来这一切都是他装出来的啊。想不到一代神雕大侠也会这一套,这人真不可貌相啊。

  杨过,郭靖一坐下,段誊(天龙八部)马上站起身来,说道:“在下段誊要有不同的看法。”群雄一看是段誊,一想到那王语焉,心中自然也流露出羡慕之色。又听段誊说道:“在下自认为追女孩子的诀窍是四个字:死缠烂打!俗话说,女人的心是水做的,总会有心软的一天,只要你穷追不舍,总会成功,若不是这样,我又怎么追得到王姑娘?”

  众人恍然大悟,心道:“你段誊确够死皮赖脸的,人家王姑娘当初那么讨厌你,却能把她追到手,这等本事非一般人所及了。看来,这一招确实管用了。又听段誊说:”只是这一招用起来好辛苦,脸皮不厚的人千万别学。“说着坐了下来。群雄都在思索:自己的脸皮可没他的厚啊,看来这一招是行不通了。

  这时令狐冲(笑傲江湖)站起身来,仰头喝了一大碗酒,说道:“我令狐冲觉得追女孩子不能死缠烂打。”众人一听,都觉一惊。这时令狐冲又道:“你们想想,我令狐冲暗恋我小师妹那么多年却一直搞不定,而盈盈却毫不费劲的追到了?”群雄都好奇地看着令狐冲,等他说完。令狐冲又道:“所以依我看追女孩子最重要是要装酷。”

  众人听到这里,不禁哦了一声。又听他说:“你们再想,我和小师妹是在一块长大的,我那些底子她怎么会不知道,而盈盈就不同了,我一酷起来她果真被我吸引住了。我再告诉各位:天下的女孩子都喜欢酷男人!”说完笑了笑便坐了下来。群雄这时也明白了过来,原来令狐冲的一切都是装出来的,难怪他当年在华山派的时候不怎么样,可一出江湖便轰轰烈烈,这小子也不简单啊,以后也要留点神了。

  过了良久,忽然韦小宝(鹿鼎记)站起身来,冲着众人哈哈一笑。群雄一见是娶了七个如花似玉的老婆的韦小宝,打心底流露出一种敬意。要知道他韦小宝要是没半点本事,又怎么追到那么多女孩子?一个个眼睛睁得大大的,都希望他能说点什么。韦小宝开口了:“小宝的招数可与以上各位大侠的不同了,小宝我没读什么书,又没武功,可我能娶七个老婆,我凭得是什么?”一句话把众人问得面面相觑。
  韦小宝又道:“我凭得是脑子和嘴巴!”众人一听都觉有理,可说得太笼统了,忙追问了下去。却见韦小宝从怀中掏出四粒骰子,往桌上一扔,嘴里叫道:“满堂红!”众人一看,四粒骰子都是四点,不禁齐声叫好。韦小宝又道:“追女孩子和扔骰子一样,别人用的方法到了你手里不一定管用,不信哪位来扔个满堂红看看!”众人一齐摇头。韦小宝又道:“也就是说,女孩子不是一成不变的,追这个女孩子的方法不一定就能用到别人身上去……”

  众人一个个听得津津入神,像是在听教授讲课一样。又听韦小宝道:“俗话说,追女孩子要胆大心细脸皮厚,这也不是没有道理的,像萧大侠,郭大侠,杨大侠等人的方法也是有道理的,我就用过,但是不能死搬硬套,要灵活运用,不能做书呆子,要从实践中出真知。要不断地尝试,不断地学习,才能不断地进步!你看我小宝,若是脸皮不厚,怎么追得到阿珂姑娘,要是胆子不大,又怎么敢去追建宁公主,洪夫人?”

  韦小宝滔滔不绝地讲着:“有的时候,追女孩子还要趋人之危,花言巧语,瞒天过海,故擒欲纵……”韦小宝一口气说了十几个成语,把众人听得暗暗吃惊,有的拿出了笔记本,当场记下,有的忙道:“小宝兄弟,能不能慢点说?”看来,这套武功是人人想学的啊。韦小宝又道:“最后,我送大家一句话,到哪座山唱哪首歌!”说完喝了口茶,说道:“我韦小宝如今可以断言,天下没有我追不到的女孩子!只要被我碰到的,没一个走的了的!”

  此话声音不大,却敲打着每一位的心,群雄此时更是佩服地五体投地,可刚才发言的那几个人却有点心惊了。都在想:“韦小宝这小子有这种本事,自己家里的女人可不能让他碰到了,他什么事都做得出来,自己费了这么一番劲可不能前功尽弃啊!”

  韦小宝一见那几人脸色大异,微微笑道:“郭大侠,杨大侠,段公子,令狐大侠,你们尽可放心,俗话说:朋友妻,不可戏,我韦小宝再不是人,也不会打在场每一位的主意,我韦小宝别的不说,对义气倒是看得挺重的。”众人听到这里时心中才松了一口气,心想:以后可不能得罪韦小宝了,朋友妻他是不戏,敌人妻嘛,就难说了。

  韦小宝刚想坐下身来,忽然周伯通(射雕英雄传)站起身来。众人一惊,他老顽童也有话要讲吗?只见周伯通大叫一声:“我老顽童想说句话:女人这东西碰不得,你一碰这辈子就完了啊!”众人一听,就要晕倒,心想你老顽童懂个屁!令狐冲站起身来说道:“周伯通,你吃得好好的,谁要你多嘴了,别人又不当你是哑巴!”周伯通计讨了个没趣,正待坐下来,这时少林寺的一个老和尚缓缓站起身来。说了一句:“阿弥陀佛”群雄一看,此人正是少林寺的方丈,虚竹的亲生父亲,风二娘的初恋情人玄兹大师,难道他也有绝招?正待好奇,只听玄兹开口说话:“罪过啊,罪过啊,问世间情为何物……”众人一听,一齐晕倒在地,狂吐不止。

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

The Amazing Race Turn off

Nearly want to slam my remote control after watching the final moments of "The Amazing Race: Family Edition".

WHY ON EARTH DID THE LINZES WIN???!!!!

Fed up with it. I dun mind the Bransens or the Weavers win, but not the yucky family of siblings!

Chauvinistic pigs, meaty bloks, and a whiney sister.

KAo!!!!

CAnt stand it!

Spoil my morning!

The Bransens stupidly choose the logs chores, Dad gets a tad slow in assembling the 52 states of US jigsaw puzzle.

The Weavers sleep thru the search trails, should have get in the stadium long before. They start of badly at the start of the race.

Can't stand it!!

Worse still, the famous line by the sister.

"I can smell the $1 million dollars!"

Wah KAo!
The brother still struggling with the jigsaw and she say that.
Puts me off. She din cheer him but say that!

MAke me want to puke!

I also want to smell the crisp and newness of the new dollar notes wat!!!

You dun have to say it out u know.

Make u look like $$$ faced..
Cant stand it!!!
Yucks!!!!

Still prefers the Gaghan family!!!

The essence of blog

Haha...This is my 301th blog entry. Feel pretty proud of myself. Normally, my attention span for newbies would not last that long haha..
So let's talk something special then.

The idea of blog.

The definition under the "Online Oxford Dictionary" 's "The Oxford's Dictionary of Modern Slang" states this:

blog noun An Internet website containing an eclectic and frequently updated assortment of items of interest to its author. 1999-. [Shortening of weblog.] So blogger, noun.

Yeah..
Then there are a variety of blogs including political blogs, news blogs, corporate blogs, moblogs and personal blogs.
I definitely duno which category my blog falls into?

Hate blog?

Rant blog?

cobwebby blog (coz I had the tendency of not updating)?

To me, blog is not just a personal blog. It is more like a column in the mass web of internet.
Bloggers are the columnists. They wrote stuff that people want to read. Quirky, porn, sweet, juicy...different aspects of life with different perspectives.
I love to read blogs. That's for sure.
Get to know different aspects of lives.
hehe..
But......
I got worked up after I heard that there is a competition for the Most popular Blogs award.
Yeah online.
Several local blogs are in it.
But the way they compete is quite ugly.
Vote-rigging.
Vote hacking.
Variety of vote mobilisation.
Blogging for the sake of blogging and vote mobilisation

What has the world of blogs come too?

Seems to me like a political arena!

haha....no longer pure pleasure of reading blogs. Now you have the "American Idol " syndrome spreading like wild fire to different parts of our lives.

EEEKS!

It is definitely a turn-off sia!

Aiya.....

Blogs continue to evolve..
Duno what will happen to it then!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005


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Monday, December 12, 2005

Puzzle Pirates!

Look here Pals!!
I think I am getting my family hooked on this game.
If you are looking for a simple avatar game, then this is it!
judging from the title, you know that it is a kind of pirate's game.
But how does it involved puzzle?
Well, for every job you performed as a pirate like Bilgeing (Pailing water out of the boat), Sailing (you increase the wind speeds for your sails), Carpentry (you try to repair your boat after it is attacked and prevent water from flowing in) , gunning (where you load cannons to shoot enemies) and navigating(where you are searching and plotting directions for the ship), you are actually given a simple game of puzzle. Upon completion, you have fulfilled ur duties as a pirate and $$$ will be given.
Oh not to mention, as a pirate, you have a unique attribute of Pillaging!! That means you attack other ships to plunder their booty!hehe!!!!Very cool!!
You can build your own house and furnished it to give parties and so on. You can host ur own drinking games and so on.

Getting you itchy for the game? Let me show you how to get there.
first you go to miniclip.com.
Then click on last option under the Top ten games. Select "puzzle pirates".
If not can click here.
Then you can download a small software, then can play already.Cool and simple ok!
Bet you will get hooked!
hehe...

Gathering!

Haha...it is a miracle that I blog on that particular itself.
Very proud that I am alive n still writing this down.

Ok..today, I finally enjoyed what starving means!

Well, ladies mah...always late sia...

We meet at Pizza Hut!
Then we have the biggest feast ever had!

haha..Yingzi was as funny as ever..She created a lot of jokes.
Like how she fall asleep in the CC while studying n how she end up watching tv while she was supposed to study at home.
Still as blur as ever, she forget she ever meet me or wat.
I think if we dun mit up, guess she will forget who I am or wat I look like.

Min is as cute as ever, with a short skirt and white top.
haha....She has changed a lot I observed.
Better complexion, better dressing taste, manicure...n much more ladylike.

Val as usual was her old self, nice n witty...not much to describe. Probably due to seeing each other too much. Dun get the wrong idea.

Hehe...

we took a lot of pictures that I would not b able to share with u.
hehe.....
too bad!

We promise each other to save up and go Taiwan. So anyone has any idea where to go?

hehe...fun nite.

Later, Min's bf join us.
He is very nice to her I can see. But I forget that cant pity him!
Oops!
So sorry Sze Hang!
If you got any orh-qing(Bruises), tell me lor..send u the address to the famous physician!!! hehe...

nite time come so fast! so sad to leave liao...hope we can get together soon!!!

hehe....

Friday, December 09, 2005

WAh....

Today go out with frenz from same faculty.
Then meet another guy, I supposed that he dislike me.
Why??!!
Let me sit in the time shuttle and zoom you back to...

2003 Economic class

So long ago!!!

Yeah! Be patient

We are having this lecture with a boring economics lecturer whom I termed as " law ding" (Please read it in hokkien, for those who duno, it is lamp- post in hokkien)
As usual, I sit with my clicks...and this guy sit right in front of me.
alone.
due to the boring nature of the class, we start to talk.
I dun think we are very loud.
He turned his head anyway and stared at us.
Tot he hate us at that moment
so I din dare to tok to him for the rest of the years till today.
Wow!
Friendly guy out of sudden.
Tok to us and even walk to the mrt together with us.
Amazing!
I would have faint by now.

hehe........
Yeah, tot he hate me turn out he is still friendly.
Wonder why.

haha...forget it lah...since it is over liao...

Thursday, December 08, 2005

遗忘 念棠

太多伤心的事历历在目
短暂的岁月里 心却如此苍老
一遍又一遍 临迟我的心
像是走马看灯 像是放慢脚步
哀伤 忧伤 受伤 死亡 到迷惘
无力排除这一切
外表的天真 掩盖不了内心如老媪(ao3)
乍似含苞待放 却已然凋零

我试着去遗忘
试着不去理会
往事如今成了一团霓虹灯
交缠在一起 分不清也看不见
这样的日子似神仙 没有过往的包袱
什么人也认不得 什么事也看不见
认真踩着自己的步伐过日子

不要怪我无情冷漠
这时候我的生存法则
原谅我的遗忘
是你对我的仁慈

于阳历2005年11月4日表 804号巴士随笔

P/s: if you want to use my work, please ask permission and cite me as well. hehe...
thanks alot!

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

What is culture?

I have been thinking what is culture in the Singapore context.
A very good and general term you might tell is Multicultural society.
But what exactly is multi-cultural?
In terms of races, religion?
According to Paul Du Gay, a sociologist, it is a set of shared practices under a common interpretative framework.
Shared practices that we as Singaporeans do know and immerse into.
What is it?
Languages like Singlish and English?
Food like Hainanese Chicken rice, laksa, roti-prata?
Shared interest like 4D?
I don't know. Frankly speaking, this question has been haunting me since my lecturer ask it.

Then she went on to ask what is culture industry?
Of course a standard and lame answer would be an industry that produced culture lah?
A rather oxymoron term.
Under Singapore's interpretation, creative industry like animations and special effects are under it.
That make me even more confused.
Is a lot of people under this broad framework?
Nah, god knows if people know there is a creative industry if not for the today's news that government going to pump in $1B (you see it right) into this industry that has great potential.
Haha...
To me culture is simple. There is no high arts like Mozart or popular culture like boybands.
As long as people enjoy and interpret in their own ways, it is culture.
So to me:

Culture is an art.

Culture is about creativity.

Culture is a bond that bind people together.

Culture is not really about money (although nowadays culture = $$$)

Culture is what makes a group of people happy.

Culture is what that make people participate and immersed in.

Culture is what you can share and people understand it.

So another question comes, do you believe there is a global culture?
I would say not really. Some practices happened to be coincidentally similar. Others are created by you know, TMNCs.
I would say everything is somewhat unique in certain way though you might say well people imitate others.
Well, imitation cant get you anywhere. Unless you modify it. By modifying it, it is unique.
hehe.......
Well, some thoughts here....
hehe....
hope you dun mind my rambling.
hehe

Monday, December 05, 2005

Shopping trips

haha...Well, sorry for the lack of update lately...
hehe...
Ah...I have meet with my very very dear frenz, Val and Xin.
hehe....Bought a lot of things like shoes and facial stuff.
Oh, Bought a top which i like it a lot. hehe...Thanks to Xin who convince me to buy it.
haha...nothing much except that I have been walking non-stop.
Then guess who I see today?
A senior whom I has at least one class with him every semester till he graduate and he went for exchange program.
He is with his gf.
Tot this semester since he grad I wun see him again. Fate has it planned that I see him even in Dec. Can you believe???
haha....
Normally I dun.
But no choice now have to believe so isnt it.

Yeah, guess for this Dec, I have to meet a lot of people. My sec sch frenz, 7sisters and of course my bunch of university frenz.
hehe....Busy I guess....
I have been planning to go to ACM to see the exhibition.
Any nerd want to join me for it?
I am going to look at the exhibition very slowly. Do bear that in mind!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Media icon of UK

I read this on "The Sun" and find this rather interesting so I tot perhaps can share with u about it.

He's Bart of our life

TELLY brat Bart Simpson has changed more people’s lives than Mother Teresa, a survey reveals.
The cartoon character came fifth in the poll ahead of the nun, computer billionaire Bill Gates, former PM Margaret Thatcher and Pope John Paul II.
Only Live Aid hero Bob Geldof, Princess Diana, George Bush and Nelson Mandela were placed above Bart in the research by directory inquiries service 118 888.
A spokesman said: “Modern media are now so important that Bart Simpson is as well known as some of the world’s biggest icons.”


Whoa! a rather high praise for a cartoon character. That's how scary the power of media is. But here at least it is for good use isnt it? Together with so many celebrities and prominent upper class and leaders. Whoa! Wonder Wat he will say??

Ok, I admit that I am falling ga-ga over astronomy ever since I took the class.
Here are some more pictures and again courtesy of NASA's APOD



A horsehead nebula. U can clearly see the horse there.


Supernova remanents. Notice the filament-like structure. Utterly amazing


Sudden stellar flash on V838 Mon.


View of moon at Antartica. Notice that the moon was oval instead of a full circle


Light reflection on the sky of North Dakota, US. Brilliance.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Free of Exam!

Finally free of exam liao..haha...Glad that everything is over. ButI got a feeling that I wun do well because the last paper is a killer. Damnit!
Aiya..then I got another attack when I heard some1 close to me got higher average than me.Wah! Think I am the average kid liao...haiz..sad thing lah...
But..feel free to msg me then. I am on auto-roam mode.haha.....
Cya in the hols!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Jokey stressful exam day

Yesterday ah...Very stressful exam out of all my exams lor..
There is this Taiwanese lecturer. She is a nice person but her exam always damn difficult and challenging.
I very stressed about it.
So guess what??!!
I had diahorrea before exam. Can you imagine?
That means I got a bit of bowel control problem with regard to stress situations leh!
Die lah.......
Haiz....
feel so useless, trying to relax and calm down, telling myself....
it is afterall one exam only mah.....
haiz...
Anyway, I went into the exam hall.....
Damn sian when I occupy the front row.
I hate sitting in the front row because I get easily distracted when the invigilators start to move around....
Anyway...I sit down and start to get my stuff and to my horror, that Ang- Moh is sitting behind me. It shouldnt be the case.
His name starts with "B" so he should be in front.
scared the hell out of me that I quickly scrambled off to check my number again!
Correct leh!
So he must be wrong lah.....
So I walk back and I was telling and calming myself to relax that I din see him still sitting behind me.
For those wo know me, I am a klutz when I take exam. Minding my own business.
Later, the right owner came and then I realise that he has not shift.
Then when he shift he carried the exam paper and the answer booklet with him!
God!
That gal has to ask the examiner for another set.
haiz.....poor thing!
Then later, duno where he goes liao.....
Guess it is the cultural problem.
We are so regimented and allocated seats unlike in the West where you have free seating.
haha......That's cultural differences you know.
a little joke out of the exam..
Later, I meet the poor gal on the bus. She told me she was scared to hell when she saw someone occupy her seat.
haha......
Guess shouldnt be laughing but cant help it.
You know, that Ang-Moh, dun even bother to open his mouth and ask me about it.
Haiz.....duno what to say about him.
A lesson to take away is try to be more friendly to others when you are overseas even thoguh you may not like socialising.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

183club

Recently, I fall in love in a new band From Taiwan.

Who??

183 CLUB.


What???

You mean you duno???

Either you duno Chinese or you live in outer space!

NVM lah...sorry for the harsh tone, but here is a picture of them.



I like the idol series, "Prince Charming"

haha.....

I like the song in it.

here is the lyrics, hope you server can read this.

你就爱Party就爱到处放电
搞得所有人都有点暧昧
我不想被骗 不想为爱翻脸
再过下一秒我就要沦陷
赶快醒醒 快睁开你的眼睛
赶快看清 他甜的快要你的命
命中已注定 是我看不清
你爱我的把戏 就像狂风暴雨
命中已注定 是我太任性
你的花言巧语 把我推入陷阱
我怎么有力气 挣开你 爱上你
你就爱Money老是被人误解
哪怕天塌下你都无所谓
我不算完美 不想一步登天
被你盯上了就会有危险
赶快醒醒 这世上没有奇迹
赶快看清 别中了他的迷魂计
命中已注定 是我太痴情
我爱你的勇气 比谁都还坚定
命中已注定 不要不相信
你的三言两语 让我奉为圣经
你对我的意义 没有人 能代替
迷魂计 - 183CLUB 歌词

In case, you want to hear the song, well, here is the link, click here.

Yeah, I realise, everytime, I have an exam, I will find a theme song of sort.hehe....
Duno ask me why....
I also duno
Beats me.

Breaking news!

Haha, now then I realise our 7sisters gang got more attached than before.
Must realli congratulate them for finding the perosn they like out of the whole SG population which is so LARGE!
Kudos to Sze Hang for successfully courted Min haha...
A case of hard work and constant committment and sincerity!
Cowsy lah...u aredi know.
Heard that Julianna got attached too.hehe...cool!!!
Wah... like that hor...left me, Xin, Val and Ling.
Though we are the majority but, Val sad over sum1, duno who!!!
may be can ask her or in fact all of them for more details.
Me dying to hear stories as always!
May be Xin got attached who knows???
hahaha..........

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Shouting for life!

Well, as usual after a period of disppearing act, I am finally back.
Well, duno if you like to see me here, but I am definitely back, werm..well, partially back I guess..
Exam's coming or in the midst of it.
I am straying from my work to think about what plans I have for the holidays, well, officially my last holidays!
Well, I guess life is not that easy anymore, starting to feel a bit sad, yeah.
I was thinking about my whole life and I think, I better stop thinking. The more I think, the more sad I am.
You may wonder why I feel so sad, I am still fine and alive and kicking.
Well, I got a number of dreams I din fulfill and not to mention I did make some error along the way.
As a perfectionist, well hell again, I find this hard to swallow.
haha......
Nevermind, I was talking crap yeah.
But recently, I was ask this question: what does culture mean to you?
Shocking question that left me numb.
Singapore culture?!! OR global culture?
Well, this is a rather chicken and egg questions to me.
Perhaps can draw some question mark like "??????" on top of both the egg and chicken picture if you can visualise.
If cant visualise then I would say
.
.
.
.
Where is your sense of humor and IMAGINATION!
.
.
.
Sorry, but I am realli bogged down by the question.
Realli make no sense to me but still have to answer the person. Haiz.....so miserable now.
Really a simple question but hard to answer.
What to do???
I also duno...
Forget it lah....
Talking about blogs then.
Well, I have just visited David Tao's journal.
Haha, If I am my dept head, probably would ask him to come here and give us a talk.
So damn close to what I am studying.
It is so real and it is the TRUTH I tell you.
Straight from the horse's mouth.
I thought maybe things are not that bad but..well, things are reflected in the academic work isnt it.
haha....
I really miss his concerts twice liao. Can you believe this!
Hell, realli like to go for his concert.
Haiz.......

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Wah,,,,

Whoa!! OOps! So long never update my blog, guess, there are spiderweb gathering! :P
Well, Had some bad luck then!
I gt myself into some problem with teamwork!
Dun say I am picky but I really got this affinity for trouble...er...challenge.
Apparently, My life was too boring so I need challenges.
I guess Cultural Bias is a big Chasm to cross.
Ang Mohs are really hard to work with!
He only answer sms from guys and not from girls!
You would guess it is shy??
How can you say a chatty guy in class Shy??
Some speculations include, he is a gay or he is a misogynist. If you duno this cheem word, you may want to consultDictionary.com.

haha...yeah..I begin to find computing courses not for me!
Damn cheeem and need a lot of creativity!
Wah.....
Anyway, enuff of the sad sad story, now let me show u some nice nice asthetic stuff that i found in Astro class!
Absolutely fascinating!
Enjoy!


Annular Solar Eclipse


The Milky Way Galaxy in Stars n Dust. Notice that it looks like the wound of Frankestein!


Unexplored Nebula or star clusters


Boomerang Nebula


All these courtesy of NASA, APOD!

Ciao!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

中医

中医
今天算我认栽了!
如果本土中医想要更上一层楼,就必须作出调整。
我已经病的不清不楚, 但是我的家庭医生刚好出国进修,所以死马当活马医,我只好到我家附近的XX医院(在200多号组屋)就医。

中医素质
我一到治疗室,就被里头的阵仗吓傻了。一名主治医生,好多名实习生, 全都是中年人。我都没被事先通知。我想既来之,则安之。就给他看吧。哪知。。。。

主治医生:“请伸出舌头。嗯,色泽还不错。”
我想:买猪舌啊!还要不要看尽量?我偏偏伸出来一下下。管你看不看的到!

主治医生 (对我说):“上次的情况还好吗?”
实习生A(小声问医生):“病人有长期的感冒记录?”
我刚好听到,翻白眼,说到我病到这样,很不爽说:“上次是很久以前。”
主治医生:“是啊,2004年哦!来我打脉。”

我乖乖伸手出来。
主治医生:“嗯,轻微赶冒。大家来打打脉。”
什么?!!!! 我是人有人权的!连问也不问我的意见,就叫人来打脉,好我看你耍什么把戏?!
大家轮流打脉。
实习生A:“嗯,好像有点脉浮。”
我差点跌到!天啊!我进了黑店!庸医!庸医!愚昧!难怪人家说庸医医死人!果真不假!这种人也好出来行医!我首个拆他的照牌!
我的体质虽还不错,被人说到好像快挂了!岂有此理!
不懂为什么我怎么生气?!
因为中医记载,脉浮则虚。意思是那个人的体质很虚弱,很差!
真是他XXXXXX!我着种门外汉都懂,他们不懂!会不会打脉?!回家啃自己啦!书多看!气死我了!
这时候,主治医生看见我不善的脸色,连忙道:“不是!不是!只是小病!”

接下来的全是庸医,连打个脉也不会!按到这么大力,脉都给你按死了,还打什么脉?!!手腕都黑青了!
真是XXXXXXXX!超不爽!
如果以这样的素质来看诊,难怪中医在新加坡的地位会区居西医!就是因为有这样的老鼠屎,坏了整锅粥!
就算要问,也别在病人面前问。害人胡思乱想!真受不了!
应该引进多点仪器来训练实习生打脉的技巧,才让他们来实习。
单单脉象就分好几种,熟知方能进步。

服务
另一项头疼的地方。
明明有很多道手续,连一点说明指示都没有。天啊!我好像无头苍蝇!不要紧,我按个号码,投了一张纸进箱,也没看清楚几号。后来才知道是为了登记,它多次催人,没人上前,我就上囖!等我登记完了,正主儿才出现!哈哈!我已抢了你的号码!还有,都没人问我是否愿意给人当白老鼠!藐视人权!
不要紧,拿药的药单必须拿去给柜台。我不知道,所以等了好久,才去问到。还被人讽刺了一下!天啊!上次跟老爸去嘛,他打点,我负责病着就好了!
所以我建议写个指示牌说明流程,给我们这些初来乍到的病人一点便利!

Thursday, September 29, 2005

totally cool!!!

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others.
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!


Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.



You Are 70% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!



Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)


You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Condition today!

Aiyo!! I am stil feeling blur n groggy.
I sleep for full 9hrs last nite n still cant get rid of the vicious headache!
haiz...but anyway, I still want to post something that i find it interesting.
Recently I took a class in astronomy. I found wonderful pictures that I want to share with you. Courtesy of NASA.

Moon River
Barred spiral Milky Way
Lenticular cloud over Hawaii
Triple sunset at the 10th Planet (HD: 188753)"
The busy lagoon of Nebula (star cluster)
Venus just passing by
A face on Mars (like a Venice mask)
Planets over Stonehenge(a place for ancient astronomy observation in UK)

Friday, September 16, 2005

A funny day!!!

I still went to school as usual coz I realli cant afford to miss lor...So i rest in the morning and i go in the afternoon.
Then i accompanied Qin to engineering for lunch.
While we chat, a loud "thud" was heard by me!
I turned around n saw a bird (duno what species) lying motionless on the ground!
I am scared on handling birds n stuff. So I see how it is like from far.
It is gasping for air n i think it hit the metal chair during it fall and maybe concuss abit..
I told Qin about it.
She is scared too...We dare not touch it. I feel so helpless. I chanted slient prayers for the bird.
Suddenly a girl came n scoop it up...think she is going to save it.
Whew!! Then i saw its partners (bird's) crowding around. They flew around, hopping on the floor to find it.
Why would a stupid bird get knocked out???
I duno...
What will you do if you are my case???


Second thing I want to comment on is that kinship is getting less important for me. I cant say it is totally not my fault but somehow I think I lacked of it. So often I would admire n even envy those with a big family n can tolerate each other.

Now you may wonder why I said that? Here is the story.
I was searching for Qin in the Sci canteen. Then I passed by a gal coming in front of me. I was searching n turning my head n I din pay attention to who's infront of me. I know its a long-haired gal.
As she passed, she gave me a long look. I am puzzled.
I continued to think of her as i searched for Qin. Then I realise that it is my god-cousin.
For god's sake, i din even know she was there in Sci. Tot she was in Arts. Din expect her to be there. She din even say hi n gave me that look for what????
Am I expected to say Hi first?
In Chinese customs, isnt it like the younger ones respect the elders?
I rembr the 1st time I saw her, I said Hi 1st. Then she look surprised then.
Not to say that I am petty, but rather what I mean is that I tried to be nice. They dun reciprocate.
Is that kinship???
You guys might say that well she may not have seen you.
But let me tell you this, this is not the first time I have seen her. I am blur as usual so many times when i see her back then I rembr it is her. Sometimes I tried to day Hi, she juz shun away.
Whose fault???
I realli duno. Am I thinking too much? Is she looking down on me that she dun even wish to see me?
But guess what? she ask me a lot of questions when she tried to get into JC or Uni. haha....so that means I had some use value then but now I dun have it issit? So she can ditch me???

Anyway, back to the part where I met her. I went on finding Qin n brush the matter aside. Trying not to care. Then I went to the Co-Op. There I met a guy whom I was in the same class last semester n had to borrow a book from him. (The book belonged to the lecturer. ) as usual, i scanned at the far back n missed him standing in front. He said Hi. Then i saw him. I said Hi too then went off coz i din see Qin.

I cant help but wonder n sighed. A accquaintance compared to a kin. Which one is more closer?
What a world difference in treatment that I got.
Some1 whom I not even consider a friend bother to say Hi while some1 whom I have played with in the childhood and so on, ignore me.

I tot I am inept in relationships. It is totally my fault. If that is the case, I am not going to pull all the blame to myself. IT is not my fault. Damnit!!!
IT IS NOT MY FAULT!
JUSt that I AM NOT fated to have!

Friends are better than kins!

So Friends, do not disappoint me!

Or else, there will not be anything that will keep me sane!

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Sore Eyes!

I realli feel at lost of what I am going to say!
Frankly speaking, I tot that I had passed the stage of Sore eyes!
Now I know I am not!
Guess What I had it again!!!!
A better term would be Viral Infection!!!
Faint ah.....How come like that??!!!
I wake up fine in the morning though I find my eyes a bit itchy last nite!
Alas! Then I went to sch n it get worse!!!!
My head was groggy!!! Haiz! My frenz were commenting on my eye was red. I said I duno what happen and that it is damn itchy!
Then as the time passed, my eyes even worse!
I decide to call my mum n she suspect it is sore eyes case...make me so frightened!
I decide to see doc, guess what he say???
In a relaxed n sit back manner, he cross his finger n form a triangular shaped.

"Aiyo, A sure case of sore eyes lor...................... U cant drink any tonic when u are unwell..........................of course lah, you will feel terrible working at such long hours at the computers coz it is out of ur routine. Besides, you are made in Singapore mah! "

Now what does he mean by made in Singapore???

I rebutted him n said, " So you mean made in Singapore is inferior lah??"

He just laughed!

And I wonder, Isnt he a Singaporean??? So that makes him of inferior quality also right????

Hahaha!!!!

But at that point in time, i was worrying about my impossibly deadline that stretched till next semester.

Then I ask if any cure.

Guess wat he say?

"Yeah only 1 way lor! REST!"

Faint ah....What kind of lame doctor did I paid for consultation??? Haiz.....

REST is something like a luxury that I cant afford now!!!

Seriously cant afford. But he assured me that if i rest fully for 3days, i should be fine.

Gues will have to trust his judgment!!!

By the way, his medication sucks!!!!

Onli his eyedrops is soothing!!

And it cost 5bucks ok!!!
If not work ah...i kill him....

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Project woes!

I know I haven been updating so do not kill me for it ok??
Recently been held up by the project stuff and I can tell u that time is not enuff even for sleeping!

The first project meeting was on Computing module. Darn!Haven been doing computing modules since Year2! faint lah...Guess what I have to do??!! IS planning! Imagine this..me going hell with it as my gpmates duno the context except me!!! faint lor! I feel like teaching them....Haiz.

Then I tot the next day will be better. No it was not! It was even worse!
I din send the email coz my connection not able to take it and that no consensus reached wrt whether going see the Prof or not!
I got sort of blast by my sort of leader!
Hey! it is not my fault that it turn out this way! I tried to remediate what!
Then there is the case of Canadian Guy!
I m realli sorry that i missed his simultaneous hat-trick sms!!! But not that I meant to lor. You know what he write in his last sms???
"For the last time, where (not when) are we miting?"

I want to remind him that "hey Pal! SMS can be synchronous and ASYCHRONOUS! Not my fault that I din reply, Buddy!"
The fact that I replied within the hour is usually my fastest! I had to switch to silent mode in sch! I still rembr the no hp interuption in sch lor!
NVM!
I tolerate...then during the discussion we are deciding on the topic and that he say something like" I am fine with XXXX (topic) since you guys would prefer it!"
What does he mean by that???
Succumb to majority influence????
U are entitled to ur say, Pal! but that doesnt mean that we will follow!
Going to the bar is not my cup of tea and like I said b4, I dun run by the American time!

Then I was too tired to do or contribute anything coz i was trying to focus on wat he has to say. He speaks realli fast and my processing speed slow down due to fatigue. I was trying at the same time to think of this valid point b4 i say. But since they dun1 anything other than the topic, i juz nod my head to the topic i like.
Guess wat Mr Canadian has to say???
"Say something dun juz nod your head!"
Excuse me, cant u see that I am tired??????
I din say not mean i am not tired!
I am worried sick for my computing project the nite b4 so not much rest!
Damn him!
I realli feel quite pissed off!!!!!

And today, I tot if no conclusion for my computing project then die lor. Turn out that we did it. The prof help us as we specify our ideas!
hehe!
Finally has something to write!
Wat more, we were juz wrong right from the start!
haha...but we managed to pull off!
whew!!!!
I am drained!

Friday, August 19, 2005

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Thursday, August 18, 2005

WAH LAU!!!

I think I had a bad day and today is juz not my day! humph!!!
Let me relate to u wat happened to me then!

830am
Shit! I forget that the lib printing centre not open yet. Luckily found another copier that's left open and operating.
Heng I din scolded by the rest. Whew!
Alas! Zap Zap Zap!
Guess wat, run out of cash value liao!!! DAmnit!
Rush down to the next storey far end corner for revaluation of card.
Came back, my guy gpmate said to me," Din occur to u that u can ask me to zap for u as well?"
Pressure! I am so used to depend on myself for watever share of work I received. Sounds to me like his male ego bruised.
I add on to it and say split the load of carrying the stack of papers to class without thinking that he is a guy. He juz grabbed the whole pile and go.
I think his ego seriously bruised. Oops!
My condolences to u having me as ur gpmate!


1115am
Ohmigod! After sloggin so hard for the job, I still miss out concepts??!!! Shit!
Luckily he say we not bad, otherwise I would have to " qie1 fu4 zi4 jing4"!!!!

God! wAt happen??!!!
The teeths, oops, no, the zipper is gone case!
My beloved pencilcase that accompanied me thru thick and thin has gone dismembered!!
WA!!!!! WA!!!!!! (plz imagine bb cries)

12-115pm
Wah Kau! Lost my personal and crucial item to me. I retraced my steps around the school. I still couldnt find it. Called mum and kanna scolded for being an idiot.
Guess wat??!!
It is lying on the floor of the bustop, drenching in rain!!!

120pm.
Shit..Why the bus turn this way instead of the other way??!!!
I realised to my horror that while i was talking to my mum and getting my penance, I actually board the wrong bus!!!!
It gets me further from my destination.
Shit I am pressing for time
Not that I cant get back but will make me reroute longer!!!
mum heard it and nearly want to strangle me over the phone!!!!

3pm
Ka bonk!!!!

Oei!!!!

Guess wat while I was admiring the clothes in Sun Plaza, I lan-ga with a small girl.
The mum was yelling at me.
I was apologizing profusely
Geez!!!
Cant let ur kids out of ur sight!!
And Excuse me auntie, though i ram into ur daughter, I was stepped by her and I juz step her shoes lor..
I am in pain sia. But I brave it for Val who is buying clothes.

A lesson to learn: 1) Rembr to look out for floor. Miniature toys Abroad!!!
2)And Last but not least, Who say kids are light-weight? My feet hurt!!
3)If no t, u will bear the guility conscience of knocking down the future
pillar of our nation!


455pm
Oops!!! I rembr I got something to buy for mum!
I called and I got scolded by mum b'coz of a packet of damn chicky...
Damnit!!!
I am going to tear u apart and dip u into hot spicy cauldron of fiery Sin Sin chili sauce and down my gastrointestional Tract!!! (in case u duno, the digestive system)

Still can find a suitable pencilcase. Wat i want is out of the colour i like!!!

8pm

WANTED


Who: Stupid Bird!!!
Last seen: My house!
Crimes: Damn shit in my room! gonna clean up!
Dead!!! But better still ALIVE!!(so that I can execute the Qing Dynasty torture series)

Dun let me find any bird that enter my house! I will get catapult and shot u dead or alive!!! How dare u make me clean ur mess after u poo!!!
Idiot!!!!
Of coz, mum had a good laugh over it and call it my retribution!!
Wonder for wat??!!

Conclusion:
As u can see I had a series of peaks and valleys today. Damn shit sure I wun forget the day n I haven got my new pencilcase!!!
wargh!!!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

National Day!

First of all, I would like to extend a very very warm greeting.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!!

Haha..It was fun. I went to the carnival at Yishun with Val. We walk all the way to the place.
The place is severely cordoned off and lotsa guys in uniform. Juz hate to c them in uniforms.
The carnival was more of a display of the various divisions of the SAF. U have the Infantry, Logistics, Communications n Engineers. Some of the field is wet and Val wondered if they had some demostrationsgoing on earlier that make use of water.

Surprise! Surprise! Kids actually crowded around the IPPT tent.
Why??
Coz there are candies!! haha....old treat for kids but they still love them anyway. No matter how clever they are, they are still kids at heart!
The Army guys had their fair share of laughter watching kids jumped the standing broad jump, shuttle run n the pull-ups.
Oh....by the way, Val actually mentioned that one of the army guys at the standing broad jump station is quite cute. Have to agree to it grudgingly. I dun like mens in uniforms. Juz instant dislike! Dun ask me why!

The next attraction with kids is the ammunition. The SAR21, the short range launcher, the truck rifles...had kids using and climbing up. There is a guy in full combat field gear with his face painted green around.wonder if his face itched all putting up the make-up for the whole day.

Next is the firworks.
The fireworks was above my head. It is so glam! N nice. Though it leaves a lingering smell of explosives. Everyone was screaming and shouting. haha...I did my fair share too.
The sight of golden wheat thrown into air, the swirling brilliance, the golden multicolour rays of fireworks all lit up the otherwise boring nightscape of Yishun.
All u can see people crowding in the few top floors of the HDB flats around the field. Juz like pigeons. haha....

As we walk our way home, we stop again as I remembr the truck n the artillary are coming round. So we waited near the big road again!
I mentioned to Val that it seems like the old movie flick of Hitler where the army had a victory in war n its people in Berlin are rushing to welcome the them back, waving their hands n flags.
It was totally cool. The army guys in green are waving like mad but some keep their cool n not wave.

We headed our way back! Such a nice nite!!

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Birthday Pressie!

Well, today I went out with Val, Cowsy and Xin. We went out to pick my pressie. We had our lunch at Subway. And the Wheat bread is fabulous so is the Tuna Classic.

I tot Val and the rest have given up on the idea of a dress or skirt. But me being unaware and blur, soon found out it is otherwise.

Not that I refuse to try anything, but I am a bit numbed by the few trips of clothes trying on. So lathargic is the word, plus my left eyelid a bit swollen.

Think my refusal and my fussiness had Everyone sweltering and temp soaring, pissed at me, in midst of the aredi high temp outside.

Wat my idea of a dress or skirt is juz plain or hidden design, monocolour. I dun like the others. I am quite affected by the heat and the stupid eye, so my mood swing set in. But I try to calm myself down. I realli hate myself for spoiling the day. I know it is hard to go shopping with a group of frenz. A rare opportunity.

I realli like the oriental kind at projectshop blood bros. hehe...I never know i could fit in a size3 tight fitting tee. realli something. I like the lotus n greens very refreshing for a design. I am not those funky type nor am I the one who like slinky dress n goes partying.

Then we try a green number at an "oriental" kind of self design shop. It certainly looks nice on the model but alas! design for a smaller body. Though a wrap skirt, the cut is a bit too high when I wear so to a rough person, very very impractical. I might be caught as exhibitionist leh.
I like a lot of fabrics. Cant bear my carrot legs to hurt other's eyes.

Finally, without choice, Val get me to the Esprit outlet near our house and I got wat i want. Tees!!!
Heehee!! I can afford 3pieces as I stretch the dollars!! Thanks Gals, for the pressie! Sorry for letting u bear with my fussiness and hot temper.

In conclusion, I still think that skirts are not for me! I am still every bit rough n hot tempered. Still thinks jeans n pants suits me more!!
hehe

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Technophobic!

Let me first of all define what is "Technophobic".
It is made up of two stems, "Techno" which means technology and "phobic" which means fear.

Now you may wonder, what the hell I got to do with this word, and most probably would want me to cut the crap! coz u know english lah...

Ok, here is the story.

Recently, my one of my friends starts to call me to attend some seminars which are useful, I admit. But one of the big big main reasons why I din go and stay at home to pen this down is because, this type of seminars are damn LONG! It last for 7hours including the time taken to travel to and fro.

So guess what? Here are the impacts on me.

1) Obvious reasons being I will constantly be afraid I will miss the last bus. And that will cause me a hell of $$ if I miss and a probable case of heart attack or irregular heartbeat.

2) Next obvious reason is that My mum will NAG and SCold me even if I am not a kid now! I am late for home. Even if i dun have a curfew!

I hate that! Fight With my mum dun end nice and in the end the one who suffer will be me.
I am Mum-dependant.

3) LAck of sleep! God knows how many hours of sleep I need so I try to sleep as early as I can. Deprivation of sleep can lead to PANDA EYES, poor concentration, poor memory and most importantly, my face will be full of pimples.

And THAT will lead to another round of vicious cycle where mum will nag again at my complexion.

See I am so disadvantaged.

So I tried my best to convey my unwillingness to go and attend such kinda late classes. But Damn!!! Handphone rings and sms flew like crazy.. as if they were FREE!!!

They even gave me the kind of advice that If u dun attend you will REGRET!!!!

Now Who am I??? Am I that kind who give in so ez unless I am willing to give in? I have my freedom you know. Dun u coerce me!

Nvm the handphone, they start calling my house phone. So can u imagine, thru'out the day, I got scared of phone ring, n handphone vibrating. I switched it off. This is technophobic.

Guess WAT!!!

Now my friend start to scold me for it. Why did u own a hp? Drop into washing machine ah??

Haiz..Now I finally understand the theory and situation of technophoics that I used to read in books. I had never tot it as so bad until this nightmare hit me!! horrible!!!

ME going to suffer breakdown soon!!!

Help me!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

An eventful day!!!

For the longest time in my life, I have never had such a close shave in bidding rounds!
I got numbed along the way and refuse to get myself personally involved in the figure competitions, raising my bids along with others.
I was still quite worried that I din get the modules even after the bidding period ends.
But Alas, hehe, I got all my modules. That is so heng, I tot I could get away with bidding all my modules at 1 point each.
I think the dept fully aware that there are certain number of students taking classes should at least extend the vacancy more to us than the other depts. I feel quite sorry for those who had unable to bid for their modules successfully and me along the way fear I might be one of them.
So much for bidding and harsh reality.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

NDP preview!!!

Going out with my sister today.
I din even know today was NDP preview till I found that almost half of the people in the MRT cabin are wearing RED!!!

I got shocked and realised that Hey it is NDP but so what!!

I din win a ticket to either of the preview or the actual event. Sourgrape mentality I know.
I cant be bothered to dress in RED when I am not going. So I happily shopped with my sister then I got myself a nice Chain from Perlini coz my old one is broken. (AS i said, I am a clumsy and rough person.)

Then as I walked myself to Suntec, the junction in front of Shaw Towers actually had traffic light problem. Then I got irritated. But decide to carry on. Then turn out that the roads around Suntec City area are totally blocked out and people are curiously peering into a vacant military compound. Stunned I decide to get a higher view. Turn out that I see the smart military marching troops for NDP rehearsing sia. Wah....The SPF, Navy, Air and Military...
One word left to describe...

COOL!!!!

Totally proud of them!!!

Then I carry on shopping lah....Coz not me marching mah..who cares..
Then around 810pm, I overheard a kid telling his parent, " Mommy I want to watch the firworks."

FIREWORKS!!!!!

How long have I not seen them......My sister calculated and said that 6yrs since we participate in NDP!!!

6yrs never see it live!!!!

How amazing so I a bit badgered my sister to stay for a little longer..

Wah.....What a tantalising view!!!! from Marina Square!!!

SO much variety and so different from the last time I seen it...Realli feel myself getting high!!!!

haha........

Then boarding MRT back is a trouble ...so many people!!! and so many police and military personnel.

Xing KU le!!!!
Ganbatte!!!

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Birthday Gift!!!

I know that today I have been very picky and very very annoying sia...
Here is how I am going to amend things.
Hope you sisters have something in mind and things that I want...Otherwise, I wun wear it. I SWEAR!!!!

There are a few that I had in mind. Can Take into account coz NO one knows my body better than I did.

Dorothy Perkins


Here is one I think I like better in WHITE!!! I checked for u. I know that this type have WHITE!


Another one of this design that is in WHITE!!!! I dun quite like other colours and I think I look betta in long skirts!!!





Besides Dorothy Perkins, Something like this kind also can...hehe..

Not that I dun like Flared skirts but adding pockets to sides makes me look bulky and the design I tried on today was not very flattering to my body shape.



This is another one which i think i look nice in it.

Oh..There is one more WHITE skirt in Espirits that I like, tier skirt I presumed.

Ah....more more preferably, I like the following top.
Quite nice and shape like a dress...hehe

Monday, July 11, 2005

Wandering in fantasy land

I think I fall in love with quite a few words since young.
If you 1 some hints, look at the illustration on my blog.

Sophisticated is one.

Sleek is the other. Careful there, it is not "slick".

Maybe I am clumsy so I tend to admire these two traits.
What has these two words got to do with my fantasy land?
Well, the books that I chose to read are all quite fantasy and include those two words.

As usual, I fall into the world that authors have created. This time is is J.D Robb. (also known as Nora Roberts).
This series of novel is more investigative type and set in the fute , let say A.D. 2058.
In this series the main lead are Lieutenant Eve Dallas and her Husband, Roarke.
Here are the settings.
Sleek cars and security systems.
Fantastic technology that existed. (I am a technophile who embraces technology. To me Technology = Sleek and Sophistication)

And their Backgrounds?
Eve though had a tainted childhood, wields considerable power in her work. (cool, Love these kind of ladies. But her background abit like Oprah Winfrey's.)
She is rough, rugged, but has her own style.
She moves like panther, sleek movements and agile.
A bit thick nerves as well.
Had a husband who is a thief in the past. ( Here is the part I like best and even like her better)
A whiz now at security and still breaks in houses to help her.
Willing to accomodate her and her past. (cool)
Successful in his business, yet help out his wife.
Had a good taste ranging from wine, food to helping his wife pick her clothes for her to wear. (wah....)
Had some kind of understanding between them.
Wont Scream at her even if she tore a damn costly evening gown during investigation.
Wont force her to quit her job and attend every of his biz gatherings like "Tai-tai's" do.
(according to facts, she attend 3 out of 5 wor..)
Make breakfast for her in the morning.
Give her massage when she needs it.
Be there for her when she has a nightmare.
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All these sounds very fantastic and screams the words sophistication and sleekness lor.. More importantly, the feelings run deep hehe.

But Sounds like I am a feminist wor. Hehe, no returns to the guy, a bit sad huh?
Well, let me known if there is such a guy, single and available (dun send me those who aredi got one), dun nid to be too handsome. (juz ok good enuff)

haha

Let me be away in fantasy land a little. hoping I will be inside then.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Reflection on blogging

It seems I have been taking blogging too lightly.

Duno why, My standard of writting skills actually declined.

Horrible sia, since I need this to survive sia.

Guess, my brain is not working so it refuse to work in the correct order and logic.

Hate this notion, guess I have to work harder on my writting skills then.

I cant really imagined the possibility of losing it.

LOst the touch!!!

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Sports and $$$$

I spend the whole day watching the final presentation aim for the bid to become the next host city for 2012 Olympics.

I find that each candidate city have played different cards on their tables well.

Sleek presentation, colours and vibrancy, children and hope, culture and art, warmth and spirit.

Very nice outlook.

I had a bit of doubt myself when my whole family voted and rooted for Paris.

It turn out that London has won. My intuition was right after all

The event was rather full of prestige, glam and $$$.

I blanched a little when i saw NY's bid presentation including marketing ties. (juz one of the many examples, happen that this is quite recent.)

Though that is part of sports now, I will never get used to tying sports to $$$.

I rembr I wrote my A" level GP compo on it.

The best example that i use i think was Manchester United. It was already famous boosting David Beckham and so on. the earnings from side merchandising was equally a big tidy sum.

But without $$4, who will wish to host games for the name of sports?

God knows, if modern people have done enough exercise to keep themselves fit, let alone sports man.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

~*~Result nr 4~*~

Your power is: Super Strength


Explanation: Your gift is rather self
exlainig. But to clear things up, you have been
given a power that makes you extremly strong.
This is of course speaking in pyshical terms.
When doing good deeds the power could be used
as helping people in e.g. fights or those under
a fallen building etc. For bad purposes the
power could simply kill/beat anyone until the
gifted gets his way.
You are however as a person on the good side.
You are the leader type and have a tendancy to
look at the whole picture rather than details.
That could make you come off as inconsiderate,
but that's far from the truth. You can be
impulsive and aggressive but you mean no harm
with it. Sometimes it can even save you. If you
were to be in a group with others who have
super powers you would be focusing more on them
and the situation rather than yourself. So to
even it out, you can be egotistical at times,
but it's because you ignore your needs every
once in a while. You are responsible and brave
but could still be seen as reckless.
Negative aspects: Since you focus on the
team/family/group of friends you could start
thinking that they don't care about you since
they don't seem to look after you the way you
do to them. Also you could intentionally
endanger yourself (even in everyday life) when
doing descicions without thinking it through
that much. But a leader with more sense of
responsibility does not however come off as
reckless, but logical.



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Monday, July 04, 2005

The essence of Blogging

On today's Chinese newspaper, there is a mentioning of the blogsphere convention in Singapore. Over 500 participants have signed up for the event. The main organisers seem to be Mr Miyagi, Mr Brown and Xiaxue.
There is a special one-liner that says," there are more bloggers in Singapore who are unidentified yet contributed to the local blogsphere."
That I must agree. A lot of us have kept blogs and made known to only a few close ones around us. Some for the purpose of keeping in touch with one another. Some for pure voyeuristic purpose of delving into another person's world.
I have friends and lecturers who have got to know another occupation better as a result of blogs kept by people in different occupations.
These seems to be great knowledge. But there is a thin line between voyeurism and concern or knowledge.
We may be intruding into other people's privacy.
Another friend of mine who keeps link to his other friends' blogs has this disclaimer or rather warning,"Please ask my friends before reading their blogs so as to respect their privacy."
But who actually heed these warnings?
You may think why I am saying all these.
But what I have to say is this. We do not know the impact of blogging at the moment. Not the long term effects. However, the short-term effects of blogging are showing.
You may have heard of misunderstandings between colleagues and the result is the blogger getting fired.
You may have heard of nude pictures online that made relatives and friends appalled.
I even have lecturers saying dun put anything online not even blogs that may have harmful effects to urself.
But what exactly is harmful? And what is the purpose of keeping blogs?
IF the purpose of keeping blogs is to be a convenient diary, then there is a conflicting interests present. Being true to your diary and protecting yourself from negative effects of that potential post.
Actually, I find that the blog written by someone can reflect the inner feelings of someone quite truthfully. You never know that that dark side of the person really exist or you didnt get to see unless you are close to that person.
But now with the convenience of the WEB, you get to see it. Even though it is text, the impact of their dark side still left quite a bit impression on you.
I didnt know that one of my friends can yell obscenities. I mean my friend wouldnt say it verbally yet he/she wrote it online. So violent words that you cant believe it is from a docile gentle person.
Hard to believe, but it is true.
There maybe even devastating vision that employers may try to search potential employee's blogs to find out about their personalities and psychologies.
Or that the blogs be used as an incriminating evidence in court against the blogger.
I am not being pessimisstic here but nothing is for certain.
No one knows how the technologies will develop. One can predict the technical aspects but never how a person interact with the existing technologies. Coz Man are the ones with intelligence and they have a special way of using things given to them.
So to be truthful in blogs or not, you have to decide for yourself.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

New CD intro

Well, I am recommending a singer cum actor from China.
This may sounds weird afterall I am in Singapore, how can I get to know then singer from China. All thanks to Internet!
This guy is super talented. Well if you think you have seen too much guys who can act but cant sing, you have mit your match.
What more, if you have a liking for slow, lazy jazz songs, and you dun mind to listen them in chinese. Here is another additional point to y you must listen to it.
It is a very unique cd album.
Fill u more on this guy, Chen Kun (陈坤). He is tall and he is shuai. Pluz he can sing and act. Multi-faceted actor from China. If you 1 to see his drama, u can try to source out for VCDs like "凤阳花鼓"(starring him and Zeng Bao Yi).
Very nice songs, fall in love with his slow and sensual voice. very soothing.
I hope I can find this cd soon leh. hehe..Very nice wor....
Can I get this CD as my Birthday present instead of a dress?
Even if I have no choice, can I choose my own dress?haiz..LAst resort that I hate to use it man.
Here is a cover of the album.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Joe Cheng Craze

Wat I can say right now is that the charm of Joe Cheng is not to be underestimated.


In case u duno who he is, the picture on left is him.
I view the Chinese pop drama "The Rose" with some skepticism. Val insisted that it is good and she is kind enough to lend me the whole series' vcd.
At first, I was like oh gosh, what kinda series is this? Then as I view on, duno if it was me being bored at this stage or wat u call as "同情心过盛", I start to like the character "Kuei" or translated literally as "sunflower" portrayed by Joe Cheng. Worse still, I start to get charmed by the natural talent flair and the onscreen charisma of Joe Cheng. He is realli talented I must say for a greenhorn.
Then I start to like the soundtrack of this series. I must say quite a few songs are nice. as I will introduce to u.
"Yao Lan Qu" by Power Station.
I have more or less favour Power Station over the years and with this song, it is strange that I din recognise their voice. Maybe I am too engrossed with the series's plot.hehe. A must listen one thought u think it may drive u to sleep. hehehe...dun worry, u wun. In fact u may cry after it.
"Yezi" by A-Sang
This series has made another female singer famous. A-Sang's a bit raspy voice portrayed this "沧桑"feel quite well. After u have seen the MV of this song starring Joe Cheng and Selina of S.H.E, u will again feel ur tear tap running profusely.hehe...I am a sucker for this kind of things right now.
"The rose" by A-Sang
The only english song in this whole series coz our dear male lead is an Ang-Moh. Quotes his sister, " I sing this song to make u sleep coz this is the only english song I know and then you are the english-speaking kid who only knows english."
haha......I laugh out loud at that.
Yeah...that's all for now. While Let me continue my 3sec heated craze with the series b4 I let go.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Kyumei Byoto 24 Ji 3

2nd day of sore body and aches. I am trying to bear with the pain but seems like a bit..hehe...too difficult.

Let me share with you my views on the new season of Emergency Room 24 Hr (the Japanese name is on top as my title).



A title shot of the show



Another picture of the lead characters in Season 3.

This series is believed to be the Japanese answer to American version of "E.R" series. As Japanese is known to be abled to localise foreign product to fit into their culture, this perception is not alien.

But this series has this uniqueness which I am not denying,and it is realli good even though you dun see the American version as they are based in totally different settings altogether

Initially, I had this negative perception about this new season as I dun like the cast. They have practically changed everyone except Eguchi Yosuke. As you may have guessed, I am a staunch fan of the second series with the smoldering chemistry between Dr Shindo (Eguchi) and Heart Specialist (Matsuyuki Yasuko). So since there is no chemistry between Eguchi and Matsushima Nanako, I hate a bit. But since I have done a research on it, I might as well take a second look at the drama again.

I must say, the plot and the setting is very very fantastic even though the cast has changed. An inspiring storyline there, with reflection on the history of Tokyo.

Tokyo as a cosmopolitan city and certainly a global one, depends very very much on its status as a global city. Since the Shogunate Era, it is aredi one of the more established city in Japan. But it has withstand a certain number of disasters since then. One of which is the 1923 Great Kanto Earthquake that hit Tokyo and other areas. This earthquake totally destroyed Tokyo's aredi crowded, divided areas -- Yamanote and Shitamachi. The division can still be seen today. This earthquake changed the structure of Tokyo and raise the awareness of the potential of earhtquake in Tokyo. The neccessary precautions and the emergency plans must be there since Tokyo now is an important base for a lot of TNMCs and so on. Anything happened there could be disasterous.



Rubbles everywhere during the 1923 Earthquake.



Houses are down like paper houses, killing a lot of people, resulting in massive losses

I think this show must have done the research on this. and Again bring on the awareness that may have waned over the years.

Great show that u must watch. I still think that I have a lingering tendency to give myself a reason to convince me to watch the show. hehe

If anyone of you are interested in the comparison studies of "E.R." and this "kyumei Byoto 24 Ji", can ask me for the copy of my group research paper.hehe

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Pain in the entire hand till back

Wah.....hand is hurting sia..cant even wash myself properly. It is Badminton day and I was looking fwd to a relaxing day when Cowsy brought along her colleague, Wei Li.(correct me if I am wrong)

This guy is very very expert at Badminton. Mind u, I din have Warm-ups which is bad. And I lack of the stamina for the entire 2hr game. Darn, He's good and I feel I must be up to his level even bare minimum. That's y I endure the whole game with pain now.

Yeah,I know I am very very stubborn. But I can help it, I'll switch to auto gear to rise to the challenge. hehe.

Now I get the consequence. Haiz. Wonder how to play mahjong tml.

By the way, I was being aimed by him and his shuttlecock. This is the 1st time I am being aimed instead of me aimed at people.

Haiz....Getting old.